It's strange ..
Life can be so amazing and sometimes when you least expect it it throws you things you dont know how to deal with. Last night i overheard my mum talking about my nana. Apparently they have found a lump in her breast.. Now,i dont know a whole lot about breast cancer, but from my understanding there isnt supposed to be pain??.. She was in some pain.. I dont know what happened at her doctors appointment but they are doing a lot of tests on her now. Im so angry. It's hard for me to see her going through all these things. I know when you get older there are lots of things that start going wrong but im upset. She already has alzhimers **spelling??**.. and that was scary enough when i found out. She is the most amazing woman, and she is very strong. It's really messing me up to see her breaking down.. Im really hurt and im at work , which is making it worse. I dont want anything to happen to her. I wish i could call her but it depresses me more because she cant remember anything .. Fuck this is hard...