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ABOUT MY LIFE:
I'm cutting out all of the bullshit. I've been unhappy for awhile now, but I've finally made several productive steps towards fixing that instead of just complaining about it. I'm eternally greatful that I have people who Love me unconditionally and know me completely and are here for me always. Not everbody has that, and I don't know what I would do with out them.
I have to stop trying to convince myself that things will get better and to keep working on it because, frankly, all of my invested emotions and efforts have been unreciprocated and shit on. It's just strage, ya know? to talk to somebody who's supposed to be your best friend and feel like you don't even know eachother anymore, or more importantly, like they don't notice or care that that's true. Most of all, it hurts.
I've only recently been able to differentiate between the people who have just always been "my best friends" because that's what we used to be for so long, and the people who have actually always been there for me and treated me like I mattered. I mean unconditionally, no matter what, always been there. Because those are the people who I know that I can always count on, and those are the people who I'm thankful for. Not the ones who just pretend to care because they're supposed to, but actually could give a shit less.
I'm cutting out all of the bullshit. I've been unhappy for awhile now, but I've finally made several productive steps towards fixing that instead of just complaining about it. I'm eternally greatful that I have people who Love me unconditionally and know me completely and are here for me always. Not everbody has that, and I don't know what I would do with out them.
I have to stop trying to convince myself that things will get better and to keep working on it because, frankly, all of my invested emotions and efforts have been unreciprocated and shit on. It's just strage, ya know? to talk to somebody who's supposed to be your best friend and feel like you don't even know eachother anymore, or more importantly, like they don't notice or care that that's true. Most of all, it hurts.
I've only recently been able to differentiate between the people who have just always been "my best friends" because that's what we used to be for so long, and the people who have actually always been there for me and treated me like I mattered. I mean unconditionally, no matter what, always been there. Because those are the people who I know that I can always count on, and those are the people who I'm thankful for. Not the ones who just pretend to care because they're supposed to, but actually could give a shit less.