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Things you wish you could say to specific people right now (don't list names):
1) Sometimes I get really frustrated because I feel like you forget who I am and the things that you know about me.
2) I feel like I always have to watch what I say in front of you because I never know how you'll interpret it.
3) There's just something about you that gets on my nerves and I don't know what it is, exactly, but I do know that it goes beyond you and your incapability of deciphering the difference between 'your' and you're.
4) You know what I think? I think that you miss me. Even if it's just a small part of you that does. Because I can' t really think of any other reason why you would still come back to this
5) To be honest, I don't even listen to what you have to say anymore, half the time. You're always convinced that you're right, even when you're not, and trying to make you realize this isn't even worth it.
6) When certain things happen I wish you were around to talk to or get excited with me. You've always been the one encouraging me to take chances and I don't know. It just isn't the same.
7) I'll be the first out of this stupid state. Just watch.
8) You make me feel like the biggest, discombobulated, idiot alive and it's not fair because you're quite possibly the biggest jerk I've ever met. Ever.rk.
Things about yourself:
1) I am never quite sure how to define myself because I know what is important to me and what makes me but never quite aware of how that all relates to one another
2) Insecurity is my biggest flaw, I am nervous about a lot of things regarding myself and what other people think or how they see me.
3) I really would like to complete my list of 101 goals in 1001 days by my 18th birthday, as I planned.
4) I don't think I know how to confront anyone about anything. When I'm angered, or disappointed by a person, or just, when I don't know how to handle a certain situation, I just ignore them entirely and hope the problem goes away eventually.
5) Sometimes I just can't shut up and end up saying things that I probably shouldn't have.
6) I crush on people way too easily and tend to embarrass myself constantly in front of those people.
7) I want a guy best friend more than anything.
Eight ways to win your heart
1) One of my favorite things is when other people show me how well they know me, whether it is telling me something very bianca-specific or giving me a gift that is unique to me that clearly took thought more than money or effort. I am always touched when that happens.
2) Surprise me. I constantly gripe about hating them, but the truth is, I really don't.
3) Sit on the swings with me and talk. It's that simple.
4) Be genuinely interested about getting to know me.
5) Challenge me. Make me take chances because I sure as hell don't take enough of them.
6) Leave me messages on AIM. Cute, simple messages would never fail to put a smile on my face. I love having something to come back to, I guess.
One confession:
1) For someone who plans everything to death, well, I am a mess. It's just that I feel like I work so hard to get to where I am, and it's not even a desirable place to be. I'm at a loss, and I honestly don't know what to do, now.
This is bound to be edited at least several times over the next few days only because I'm indecisive like that. And plus, it's 12AM and I'm getting tired and at this point, my thoughts are muddled. I did this to get sleepy and obviously it worked. It's probably a good idea for me to go to bed now considering that I have church to go to early tomorrow. Goodnight.
1) Sometimes I get really frustrated because I feel like you forget who I am and the things that you know about me.
2) I feel like I always have to watch what I say in front of you because I never know how you'll interpret it.
3) There's just something about you that gets on my nerves and I don't know what it is, exactly, but I do know that it goes beyond you and your incapability of deciphering the difference between 'your' and you're.
4) You know what I think? I think that you miss me. Even if it's just a small part of you that does. Because I can' t really think of any other reason why you would still come back to this
5) To be honest, I don't even listen to what you have to say anymore, half the time. You're always convinced that you're right, even when you're not, and trying to make you realize this isn't even worth it.
6) When certain things happen I wish you were around to talk to or get excited with me. You've always been the one encouraging me to take chances and I don't know. It just isn't the same.
7) I'll be the first out of this stupid state. Just watch.
8) You make me feel like the biggest, discombobulated, idiot alive and it's not fair because you're quite possibly the biggest jerk I've ever met. Ever.rk.
Things about yourself:
1) I am never quite sure how to define myself because I know what is important to me and what makes me but never quite aware of how that all relates to one another
2) Insecurity is my biggest flaw, I am nervous about a lot of things regarding myself and what other people think or how they see me.
3) I really would like to complete my list of 101 goals in 1001 days by my 18th birthday, as I planned.
4) I don't think I know how to confront anyone about anything. When I'm angered, or disappointed by a person, or just, when I don't know how to handle a certain situation, I just ignore them entirely and hope the problem goes away eventually.
5) Sometimes I just can't shut up and end up saying things that I probably shouldn't have.
6) I crush on people way too easily and tend to embarrass myself constantly in front of those people.
7) I want a guy best friend more than anything.
Eight ways to win your heart
1) One of my favorite things is when other people show me how well they know me, whether it is telling me something very bianca-specific or giving me a gift that is unique to me that clearly took thought more than money or effort. I am always touched when that happens.
2) Surprise me. I constantly gripe about hating them, but the truth is, I really don't.
3) Sit on the swings with me and talk. It's that simple.
4) Be genuinely interested about getting to know me.
5) Challenge me. Make me take chances because I sure as hell don't take enough of them.
6) Leave me messages on AIM. Cute, simple messages would never fail to put a smile on my face. I love having something to come back to, I guess.
One confession:
1) For someone who plans everything to death, well, I am a mess. It's just that I feel like I work so hard to get to where I am, and it's not even a desirable place to be. I'm at a loss, and I honestly don't know what to do, now.
This is bound to be edited at least several times over the next few days only because I'm indecisive like that. And plus, it's 12AM and I'm getting tired and at this point, my thoughts are muddled. I did this to get sleepy and obviously it worked. It's probably a good idea for me to go to bed now considering that I have church to go to early tomorrow. Goodnight.