it's been a while...
And so it has.
It frequently happens that though I have many things going on, there's not much I really have to say about them. I mean, when one sees someone one hasn't seen in quite a long time, they will invariably ask you what you've been up to, in some form. Currently, I have the same response every time. "I've been really busy! I'm working on my show, working in general and that's about it." A short response but nonetheless a complete one. That's all I've got. There are other things going on, but when you're directing a play, your life becomes somewhat defined by it, in one way or another. It feels, in a way, that I've sprouted a whole new life, so now I have two. One deals with the things I've been dealing with nonstop for a long time, and my second life is the play. Needless to say, it's rather exhausting leading two lives.
So, life number one involves bunches of family concerns right now. Not stuff I really want to talk about, I would feel pretty awkward writing about it online, but family health issues that effect me deeply, not just emotionally, but physically in the sense of if it turns out to be bad, rather than good, it determines where I will be after my lease is up in August. Also, car issues are pretty rampant...big surprise there. Money issues are rampant as well, which serves as a direct lead-in to the job-finding issues. Ideally, what I'm hoping is that I'll get this job in a theatre office. I just sent in my application today, so ::crosses fingers:: If not...I'm still looking elsewhere. I need to get out of here, this office is becoming toxic to me and I just can't take the poison anymore. My antibodies have been forcibly removed.
Between life one and life two, I haven't had time (or a lot of money) to just relax and have fun of late. I mean, I'll still go to a movie now and then...but I'm trying to be more financially conscious, so most of that kind of gallavanting is out. The last film I saw was There Will Be Blood and that was a weird, interesting, eye-catching film. Daniel Day-Lewis is undeniably amazing and I absolutely *loved* the vocal work he did on that film. It makes me want to jump around with excitement. Just...*great.* I also saw Juno recently, which, although good and pretty funny, was not as amazing as I think everyone makes it out to be. To be fair though, since I knew everyone thought it was amazing, I walked in there with pretty stellar expectations and it just didn't quite live up. Not to say it wasn't quirky or didn't have personality or wasn't cleverly written, just not necessarily my cup of tea. Definitely, Maybe was cute, but more on the entertainment scale than the artistic one. You know, it's interesting that though I would consider the three films I've gone to in about as many months not very many, I remember that most people hardly ever go to the movies. I'm a movie-goer, and especially considering that the proportion between the movies I've wanted to go see to the ones I've actually gone to see possesses a great disparity, I've not really gone to see much in the last few months.
There's more stuff going one. Life number two, filled with fun theatrical things. Filled with stressful theatrical things too. I'm having fun, I missed being creative and artistic, so I'm really enjoying this, but right now, my brain can't find the words that it wants, I'm exhausted and I'm hungry. I'm also bored and stuck at work with, wait for it, nothing to do. All of this makes for a great combination of lethargy and annoyance. Not the greatest feelings one should be having when reflecting of the life that has occured for the last few weeks. I felt bad, though, since I haven't posted in so long. ::shrugs:: Sorry, folks, I tried. It'll be better next time.
It frequently happens that though I have many things going on, there's not much I really have to say about them. I mean, when one sees someone one hasn't seen in quite a long time, they will invariably ask you what you've been up to, in some form. Currently, I have the same response every time. "I've been really busy! I'm working on my show, working in general and that's about it." A short response but nonetheless a complete one. That's all I've got. There are other things going on, but when you're directing a play, your life becomes somewhat defined by it, in one way or another. It feels, in a way, that I've sprouted a whole new life, so now I have two. One deals with the things I've been dealing with nonstop for a long time, and my second life is the play. Needless to say, it's rather exhausting leading two lives.
So, life number one involves bunches of family concerns right now. Not stuff I really want to talk about, I would feel pretty awkward writing about it online, but family health issues that effect me deeply, not just emotionally, but physically in the sense of if it turns out to be bad, rather than good, it determines where I will be after my lease is up in August. Also, car issues are pretty rampant...big surprise there. Money issues are rampant as well, which serves as a direct lead-in to the job-finding issues. Ideally, what I'm hoping is that I'll get this job in a theatre office. I just sent in my application today, so ::crosses fingers:: If not...I'm still looking elsewhere. I need to get out of here, this office is becoming toxic to me and I just can't take the poison anymore. My antibodies have been forcibly removed.
Between life one and life two, I haven't had time (or a lot of money) to just relax and have fun of late. I mean, I'll still go to a movie now and then...but I'm trying to be more financially conscious, so most of that kind of gallavanting is out. The last film I saw was There Will Be Blood and that was a weird, interesting, eye-catching film. Daniel Day-Lewis is undeniably amazing and I absolutely *loved* the vocal work he did on that film. It makes me want to jump around with excitement. Just...*great.* I also saw Juno recently, which, although good and pretty funny, was not as amazing as I think everyone makes it out to be. To be fair though, since I knew everyone thought it was amazing, I walked in there with pretty stellar expectations and it just didn't quite live up. Not to say it wasn't quirky or didn't have personality or wasn't cleverly written, just not necessarily my cup of tea. Definitely, Maybe was cute, but more on the entertainment scale than the artistic one. You know, it's interesting that though I would consider the three films I've gone to in about as many months not very many, I remember that most people hardly ever go to the movies. I'm a movie-goer, and especially considering that the proportion between the movies I've wanted to go see to the ones I've actually gone to see possesses a great disparity, I've not really gone to see much in the last few months.
There's more stuff going one. Life number two, filled with fun theatrical things. Filled with stressful theatrical things too. I'm having fun, I missed being creative and artistic, so I'm really enjoying this, but right now, my brain can't find the words that it wants, I'm exhausted and I'm hungry. I'm also bored and stuck at work with, wait for it, nothing to do. All of this makes for a great combination of lethargy and annoyance. Not the greatest feelings one should be having when reflecting of the life that has occured for the last few weeks. I felt bad, though, since I haven't posted in so long. ::shrugs:: Sorry, folks, I tried. It'll be better next time.