I woke up this morning dreaming of someone and wanting to be a director...
I don't often remember what I dream, but today I dreamed of someone that I don't like dreaming about. It puts me in an unhealthy state of mind. It's far too good a dream and it makes me both not want to wake up and go flying off somewhere I have no business being to find out if there is any substance to it. Today I woke to this fantastically conflicted dream and couldn't sleep again. So I decided to go online and continue a search I began the other day--for MFA Directing programs.
After about 40 minutes of this, I come away with a few thoughts:
-I want this more than I think I've ever wanted anything. It's like my center of gravity pulls me towards that life.
-It's going to be damn hard work getting into any of these programs.
-I'm going to need to be more committed and more dedicated to it than I've been to just about everything else in my life in order to succeed. And not just getting into a program, but getting into this life of theatre.
I haven't been working hard enough, folks. Not by a long shot. And despite the pang that thought gives me, it carries along with it a certain degree of determination and hope. I can do this...it's going to be a hard, long journey, but I can do it. Just breathe and work towards it every day. It's want I'm meant to do, but that doesn't mean that it will just come to me.
Thanks for that dream today, by the way.
After about 40 minutes of this, I come away with a few thoughts:
-I want this more than I think I've ever wanted anything. It's like my center of gravity pulls me towards that life.
-It's going to be damn hard work getting into any of these programs.
-I'm going to need to be more committed and more dedicated to it than I've been to just about everything else in my life in order to succeed. And not just getting into a program, but getting into this life of theatre.
I haven't been working hard enough, folks. Not by a long shot. And despite the pang that thought gives me, it carries along with it a certain degree of determination and hope. I can do this...it's going to be a hard, long journey, but I can do it. Just breathe and work towards it every day. It's want I'm meant to do, but that doesn't mean that it will just come to me.
Thanks for that dream today, by the way.