rest in peace buddy

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so his funeral was today. it was an open casket. it was great seeing him again. it made me feel a lot better. at least i remember the last time i saw him. he looked so good. not one mark on his face from the accident. knowing jeff im sure that he just covered his face and pushed the car away. he was such a strong person.... the last i expected this to happen to. when i first heard that he was in the car accident i figured he was fine.... but no. jeff died? how can that even be? i should be more worried about the car than i should jeff. how can a car take him out? hes stronger that that piece of metal. he could rip that car apart faster than the jaws of life. today is when i really realized hes gone. Seeing him in that casket made me remember all the good times we had. I know hes in a better place. I didnt leave saying goodBYE... i left saying goodNIGHT. i will see him soon. i know everything happens for a reason. maybe it is for the best? right now i dont see how its for the best but im sure as time passes my eyes will open and i will realize it. he is the first of my friends to go... but definately not the last. cherish your friends. keep the ones close to you CLOSE. you never know when stuff like this might happen. i know some of you may not feel it like i do. you may just be reading this and not care cuz he wasnt your friend.... but imagine if it were. imagine if one of your good friends dies in a car accident out of nowhere. its not expected... you can see them one day and the next they'll be gone. im glad i had the relationship i had with him. it was the kind of thing where we knew we might not see eachother for a while so we enjoyed our company every time we hung out. we never knew the next time we would hang out. it might be a couple weeks... maybe even two months. jeff was always running around everywhere. me and him knew our friendship was real. im glad we got to be good friends for the last year. jeff has made a huge impact on my life.... while he was here and after he left. i respect him. thursday is the last time i will see his body. im just glad i can say bye. rest in peace narin jeffery rice.

Nothing Gold Can Stay
by Robert Frost

Nature's first green is gold.
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
The leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing Gold Can Stay.