My suspension turned pull
I couldn't go up. Instead, I stayed on the ground and leaned all my weight into the hooks. I'm still in shock and awe, so I'm just gonna paste what I typed to someone in AIM.
lindab0t: I wish I could describe the intensity of the emotion. Everything you might have bottled comes out and you know you just need to let go, dive into the sensation and emotion and let your feet off the ground but your feet are glued to the earth and you can't let go of any pain (emotional and physical). It was too much. I wasn't prepared.
lindab0t: It's terrifying. But I know if I just let go, it would be so cathartic and beautiful
lindab0t: I was prepared for the pain and the shock and the endorphins, but nothing could have prepared me for the emotion
lindab0t: It makes every emotion you might have bottled or hidden away swell to the surface along with the endorphins and the pain and the natural desire to keep your feet on the ground no matter how high you're being hoisted.
xxxxx: so why is that something you want to do?
lindab0t: Because you let go. It comes to the surface and you let go of the fear and the pain.
lindab0t: You let go of those horrible emotions you've been bottling along with the need to stay glued to the ground
xxxx: i still don't quite understand the emotional component. but then, nothing i have tried to get rid of emotions has quite worked.
lindab0t: I didn't pull for very long so there aren't very many pics. I'm disappointed in myself, but I'm still proud. I was so scared and I still did it, partially.
lindab0t: Yes, I feel the same way. But this rips them out of you and shoves them in your face. You lose your reserve.
I have pictures, but I'm not sure if I want to post them. Too many people would want to see just for the squick factor. Ask and maybe I'll send you the link via e-mail.