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For the life of me I can't wake up today. I'm so drained, but I'm sad to say I did it to myself. Last night I drank two hot chocolates.. I cheated.
I didn't think I would see that much of a difference but it's the only thing I can think of that would cause such a lapse. Foggy, stiff, drained.
I have noticed the puffiness in my face has been getting better this week along with my energy levels.. until now.
Let's hope this fall off the wagon doesn't result in too long of a recuperation period. Feeling like this isn't worth it, I don't see me putting much sugar into my system after this weekend's lesson. The one tea a week was okay, but that's all I'm permitting myself after this weekend. Whether is be true physical changes or some mental trigger.. I don't care. What I do care about is how I feel daily, and the SCD was working, it's the only thing that has changed. It's the only thing I can think of.
Well, that's a big slap on the wrist for me. Next time I'm PMSing.. fight the cravings harder, it's for my own wellbeing.
We are celebrating an early birthday this weekend, when Mark comes home we'll be going out to dinner to Brewsters. I know Beer is also illegal, but I was going to try the raspberry ale. There was one at home I loved. I don't drink so when I do.. It's a few for the taste and the quality, not to get pissed. In fact, I feel tipsy and physically I can't drink another sip, it turns into the worse taste ever. Maybe I'll get Mark to order one and I'll take a sip. The meal I will still remain true to SCD. Now I'm wondering if I should even go, if I've already hindered my status and made myself feel like shit already.. why not do the weekend and get it out of my system? Then I can resume more dedicated for the cause and the health. Funny how we teach ourselves what's best for us, testing the water one last time to prove it to ourselves, making the dedication just "that much" easier to bear.
At least this verifies I was improving and can feel healthy again. The promise of that once I restrict myself again is more hope than I've had in 6 months.
I didn't think I would see that much of a difference but it's the only thing I can think of that would cause such a lapse. Foggy, stiff, drained.
I have noticed the puffiness in my face has been getting better this week along with my energy levels.. until now.
Let's hope this fall off the wagon doesn't result in too long of a recuperation period. Feeling like this isn't worth it, I don't see me putting much sugar into my system after this weekend's lesson. The one tea a week was okay, but that's all I'm permitting myself after this weekend. Whether is be true physical changes or some mental trigger.. I don't care. What I do care about is how I feel daily, and the SCD was working, it's the only thing that has changed. It's the only thing I can think of.
Well, that's a big slap on the wrist for me. Next time I'm PMSing.. fight the cravings harder, it's for my own wellbeing.
We are celebrating an early birthday this weekend, when Mark comes home we'll be going out to dinner to Brewsters. I know Beer is also illegal, but I was going to try the raspberry ale. There was one at home I loved. I don't drink so when I do.. It's a few for the taste and the quality, not to get pissed. In fact, I feel tipsy and physically I can't drink another sip, it turns into the worse taste ever. Maybe I'll get Mark to order one and I'll take a sip. The meal I will still remain true to SCD. Now I'm wondering if I should even go, if I've already hindered my status and made myself feel like shit already.. why not do the weekend and get it out of my system? Then I can resume more dedicated for the cause and the health. Funny how we teach ourselves what's best for us, testing the water one last time to prove it to ourselves, making the dedication just "that much" easier to bear.
At least this verifies I was improving and can feel healthy again. The promise of that once I restrict myself again is more hope than I've had in 6 months.