I wanted water but, I walked through the fire - if this is what it takes to take me even higher...
I am so dead tired. At least last night was able nap and that helped a bit.
Insomnia finally left - for once. Thank God.
As for yesterday, for once - I feel better about a situation that I had been confused about for far too long. When words aren't explained or told, things happen. It was about time that things were cleared up so I knew where I stood so however things happen - I can finally find where I stand with this one person.
But in any event - it's been fixed and although it's not alot of what I wanted to hear I still find that this weekend has been the hardest hit I've had. 3 days of being up at 4am, patiently listening to being scolded for being an idiot and not phoning, being scared to friggen death.
at least I'm down 4 pounds. <.<
mind you I feel sicker than a bowl of wiggly jello.
But I finally know that I can move on with life, find maybe possibly a person to teach me guitar or something - if I could read notes, it'd be so much easier - but being able to play by ear/repitition has it's definite benefits. I've talked to musicians, and know that they wish they had that ability.
honestly I think alot of them do - but don't realise it.
meh. I'm so lazy. work yesterday was like I wasn't even there. I didn't feel like I was there.
It's winter solstice - the moon was high above when I went to work. It made me wanna cry. Here comes the darkest part of the year.
guess I better get off my ass and go to work.
BTW - if ANYONE likes to listens to John Mayer - GET JOHN MAYER TRIO.
Insomnia finally left - for once. Thank God.
As for yesterday, for once - I feel better about a situation that I had been confused about for far too long. When words aren't explained or told, things happen. It was about time that things were cleared up so I knew where I stood so however things happen - I can finally find where I stand with this one person.
But in any event - it's been fixed and although it's not alot of what I wanted to hear I still find that this weekend has been the hardest hit I've had. 3 days of being up at 4am, patiently listening to being scolded for being an idiot and not phoning, being scared to friggen death.
at least I'm down 4 pounds. <.<
mind you I feel sicker than a bowl of wiggly jello.
But I finally know that I can move on with life, find maybe possibly a person to teach me guitar or something - if I could read notes, it'd be so much easier - but being able to play by ear/repitition has it's definite benefits. I've talked to musicians, and know that they wish they had that ability.
honestly I think alot of them do - but don't realise it.
meh. I'm so lazy. work yesterday was like I wasn't even there. I didn't feel like I was there.
It's winter solstice - the moon was high above when I went to work. It made me wanna cry. Here comes the darkest part of the year.
guess I better get off my ass and go to work.
BTW - if ANYONE likes to listens to John Mayer - GET JOHN MAYER TRIO.