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[unwelloverlink]

I don't why I even bother writing anything.

I feel like I've got nothing. I've been crying for an hour.

I'm wondering if I should phone 911, but I forgot that they don't come out to places like this.

I'm really really sick. If anyone knows what type of sick I mean, it's the type where I feel like I'm better off dead.

I'm not looking for pity. I need someone to either understand, or to continue to ignore the fact that someone needs more help than you think.

I am literally going crazy. I should have gone to Lethbridge but I didn't. I lost that ticket an hour ago.

My body aches from internal pain of feeling like nothing, from shuddering and trying to gasp through air breaks of crying. I'm so scared that I keep crying.

I don't know what to do - and I feel so useless. I feel like more of a burden than anything remotley wonderful.

I don't know who to turn to, or to talk to. I don't even know if it would do any sort of good.

I'm just not stupid enough to kill myself. I just can't do it.

So I just pathetically sit here bawling my eyes out like the moron I am.

If I felt anymore generated, I'd be a sim. Yet even they have feelings - and I'm too scared to drive to the hospital.