Family issues...
Grandpa Sommerfeldt had his 88th birthday yesterday.
It's depressing to see what they're having to go through right now.
I gave him a hug and told him 'Happy Birthday'. He looked to me and asked, "It's your birthday?"
me: "No grandpa it's your birthday."
Grandpa: "It can't be!"
me: "Well it's November 29th - I don't know of anyone elses' but yours"
Grandpa: "What day is it you say?"
me: "November 29th, 2005"
Grandpa: "Oh! and it's your birthday?"
me: *cynical* "It's kind of hard for me to have a birthday in November when mine is in May, Grandpa. So happy birthday!" :P
It's so cold in that old building. No doubt that they're freezing cold in there. Don and Melanie took apart the fireplace so Grandpa couldn't burn anything. They haven't put it back together so Grandma and Grandpa are freezing.
Yet Melanie and my mom start saying on how kids aren't being raised properly, how Kathryn is getting married in "Portugal, Spain". Yeah - if she can fit on the plane cause she's preggo. My reaction to my cousin who has been drinking Tequila shots, getting high off exstacy, and getting laid by her sisters' husbands (I'm not joking you - it's true) but yeah - I'm not really that suprised that she is, and I don't really care. Cause it's just another Julie scenario.
This is why I don't like a certain part of my family.
My brother is having problems. After being married to Crystal he's going through a rough patch with her right now, I can only say that the only way to figure things out is by talking to her about it. He's also apparently fallen out of love with her. All sorts of things.
I don't feel safe hardly anywhere anymore. I feel miserable knowing that Cameron, Valerie, and Cassandra are all amdist this.
I eventually in my life, I want to be able to share my life with someone I truly love and care for. No marriage is ever perfect but you have to give and take things, guarenteed hell and heartbreak but still being able to be in love with that person. It's why I look up to my parents for that. It's probably hard on my mom knowing she's the only member of her family that hasn't been divorced. But that's what makes it so special and happy. The only successful marriage is one that never dies. It may be old fashioned but with how everyone just divorces someone over something stupid, it's heartbreaking.
I'm just a tad bit sad over it, and it gets me down. I know someone else who is getting married and I enjoy not listening because I'm okay by myself right now. But not having anything to share with someone - not even a friend. Makes it really hard to live here.
I keep getting older and wisdom comes along with it, but I still find at times it's unbearable to be who I am. I'm sure I'm not the only person who feels that they'll be alone forever. I don't want to be alone forever. I may be independant but I still want someone to love, and someone to love me for who I am.
It's depressing to see what they're having to go through right now.
I gave him a hug and told him 'Happy Birthday'. He looked to me and asked, "It's your birthday?"
me: "No grandpa it's your birthday."
Grandpa: "It can't be!"
me: "Well it's November 29th - I don't know of anyone elses' but yours"
Grandpa: "What day is it you say?"
me: "November 29th, 2005"
Grandpa: "Oh! and it's your birthday?"
me: *cynical* "It's kind of hard for me to have a birthday in November when mine is in May, Grandpa. So happy birthday!" :P
It's so cold in that old building. No doubt that they're freezing cold in there. Don and Melanie took apart the fireplace so Grandpa couldn't burn anything. They haven't put it back together so Grandma and Grandpa are freezing.
Yet Melanie and my mom start saying on how kids aren't being raised properly, how Kathryn is getting married in "Portugal, Spain". Yeah - if she can fit on the plane cause she's preggo. My reaction to my cousin who has been drinking Tequila shots, getting high off exstacy, and getting laid by her sisters' husbands (I'm not joking you - it's true) but yeah - I'm not really that suprised that she is, and I don't really care. Cause it's just another Julie scenario.
This is why I don't like a certain part of my family.
My brother is having problems. After being married to Crystal he's going through a rough patch with her right now, I can only say that the only way to figure things out is by talking to her about it. He's also apparently fallen out of love with her. All sorts of things.
I don't feel safe hardly anywhere anymore. I feel miserable knowing that Cameron, Valerie, and Cassandra are all amdist this.
I eventually in my life, I want to be able to share my life with someone I truly love and care for. No marriage is ever perfect but you have to give and take things, guarenteed hell and heartbreak but still being able to be in love with that person. It's why I look up to my parents for that. It's probably hard on my mom knowing she's the only member of her family that hasn't been divorced. But that's what makes it so special and happy. The only successful marriage is one that never dies. It may be old fashioned but with how everyone just divorces someone over something stupid, it's heartbreaking.
I'm just a tad bit sad over it, and it gets me down. I know someone else who is getting married and I enjoy not listening because I'm okay by myself right now. But not having anything to share with someone - not even a friend. Makes it really hard to live here.
I keep getting older and wisdom comes along with it, but I still find at times it's unbearable to be who I am. I'm sure I'm not the only person who feels that they'll be alone forever. I don't want to be alone forever. I may be independant but I still want someone to love, and someone to love me for who I am.