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I'm nothing but just the ashes of what is left of sweet illusion from before. I don't matter to you . I was just part of your mind game . Dear god , I won't be a martyr . I don't want to be one either . There's still hope in me that something in you will change that's why I still have dreams of you sometimes about us meeting and things getting good . You haunt me in my daydreams and nap . It's nice that I don't get haunted at night by you all the time because I can't sleep . When I wake up and realize that it's all a dream , I get sad . I realize how much I wish things were really like in the dream . Then again in reality , you didn't bother trying at all . Maybe I wasn't interesting enough for you . What you just fell for were my physical appearances and what you thought I was . You don't care about my feelings at all . Why do you do all of this chasing in the beginning and tell me that you don't know whether it was all real . You were just testing me . What?!! You're not worth it . I keep telling myself . You're just going to disappear from my head and heart soon . Maybe I am just hoping , you might say happy birthday or something to me this Friday . Something must change . If you did care enough . I don't think so . You just care about yourself now . You think you're different from everyone . You shouldn't matter the way you are now . You don't . I want to say goodbye to you if that's how things are going to stay .
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