Apr 30, 2012 19:42
Okay , i guess i feel slightly lonely and unwanted. I am comparing myself to my siblings and other people that i know. They have friends they hang out with often. People they share their feelings and thoughts with often. People in real person. I have to admit that i can't stand myself if i talk too much about my own problems . I feel uncomfortable because i think maybe i am not that interesting to the other person i am talking to. Basically, i guess they aren't that interested in hearing it.
You can say to someone that you think you aren't interesting and they say you are.Really, maybe its all reverse psychology just so they would feel obligated to say the way you want you to hear.
I am turning 18 soon .It justs feels like i may never ever meet that special someone/friend. Everybody seems to have found their friends. I guess i just feel like being more quiet now. I am afraid of what people think of me.Oh , let's not give a shit.I don't feel like saying much.I figure that i can spot what people would prefer and "dislike" about me.
Its like conversations never ever reach to a certain depth with the people around me.