This will be my last confession; "I love you" never felt like any blessing
Title: Dragging
Pairing: One-sided Karkat ♠ Jade
Rating: PG?! PG-13 for Karkat, I guess.
Word Count: 952
Summary: It doesn't take much for a change of heart- but the damage done is another story.
Disclaimer: This was supposed to be so much angstier I do not even. HOMESTUCK IS NOT MINE.
It hadn't always been like this.
Jade had hated him too, once. Certainly she didn't despise him to the degree he would have liked, but it still worked. The insults she flung could nearly keep up with his own, and she was so scathing sometimes that Karkat could almost pretend she was right there in the same room, glaring at him from behind those ridiculous lenses.
It had worked, that brief time spent conversing online. Karkat had actually allowed himself to hate her properly, once he realized she wasn't like her brother. (A split second wondering if he had a type or something, before it was hastily dismissed in favor of another message calling him an insufferable jerk.) Jade, unlike John, could find it in herself to hate. More specifically, she could and did, and the object of that hate was Karkat.
He couldn't have been more pleased, really. It was stupid, throwing himself at this possibility so readily, as though she couldn't easily yank the rug out from beneath him with a few simple words.
It had probably changed the second time Jade fell asleep, the first time Karkat was there when she woke up in the furthest ring. He'd been perched at the foot of her bed, bristling at the gods with his shoulders hunched. She could only see his back, but there was no doubt he had his teeth bared too. To Jade he had seemed like a cat, puffed up to try and look scary.
But beneath the prickly exterior, she could tell he was just as scared as she was. Maybe even more so. That threw her off, really, the thought that this person- no, this troll would be so terrified of the same thing Feferi had tried to convince her was harmless. It made him seem more real, more likable, not as if his only purpose in life was to terrorize her.
And thinking about it, that had been her opinion of him before. It hadn't occurred to her that he wasn't just words on a screen. Embarrassing in hindsight, but easily fixable.
Finally, he noticed she was awake, just sitting quietly behind him and watching. His cheeks took on a warmer grey tinge, and he scowled.
"What the fuck are you doing awake? Like you have time for that! Go back to sleep- or wake up, or whatever. You can come play with these fuckers later." He huffed.
Then, as though an afterthought, though he didn't let her so much as get a word in edgewise. "Figure out a way to wake me up too, while you're at it. I don't have time for this either."
She opened her mouth to snap something derisive at him- like he had any right to boss her around! But the world was already fading around her, and he cocked an eyebrow with something almost close to a smile before turning his back to her.
More like a dog than a cat, she revised. Cats had never been good about keeping watch.
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-- carcinoGeneticist [CG] began trolling gardenGnostic [GG] --
CG: REALLY.
CG: OF ALL THE WAYS TO WAKE ME UP YOUR SILLY HUMAN THINKPAN SOMEHOW DECIDED IT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO TELL THE BLIND TROLL TO LICK ME INTO THE WAKING WORLD.
CG: DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW REVOLTING THAT IS.
CG: NO. YOU DON'T SO DON'T EVEN START TYPING THAT ANSWER.
GG: actually i do
GG: bec wakes me up like that sometimes
CG: OKAY THAT CANNOT BE EVEN POSSIBLY HEALTHY.
CG: THAT DOG CANNOT EVEN BE CALLED A DOG ANYMORE IT REALLY GOT ITS MUTANT DROOL ALL OVER YOU?
CG: DISGUSTING.
CG: HOW HAVE YOU NOT SOMEHOW BECOME DUMBER BECAUSE OF THAT.
CG: ASSUMING THAT IT'S POSSIBLE.
GG: :T
GG: why are you always so mean?
GG: there's really no reason to be
CG: BECAUSE I AM A HORRIBLE TERRIBLE NO GOOD VERY BAD TROLL.
CG: LOOK I MADE A REFERENCE TO YOUR SILLY HUMAN LITERATURE.
CG: AND IT'S BECAUSE I HATE EVERYONE.
CG: ESPECIALLY YOU.
CG: ACTUALLY I WANTED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT THAT.
GG: what?
CG: I ABSOLUTELY LOATHE YOU.
CG: IT'S KIND OF AMAZING HOW MUCH I DESPISE YOU JADE.
GG: why are you telling me this??
CG: BECAUSE I WANT TO ASK YOU SOMETHING.
CG: ACTUALLY I SHOULD PROBABLY CHECK HOW YOU FEEL FIRST, EVEN THOUGH I'M PRETTY MUCH POSITIVE ALREADY.
GG: karkat this is kind of really weird...
CG: SHUT UP THIS IS REALLY AWKWARD.
CG: STOP INTERRUPTING ME WHEN I'M TRYING TO TOUCH ON A SENSITIVE SUBJECT OKAY.
GG: :T
CG: JADE WHAT ARE YOUR FEELINGS ABOUT ME EXACTLY?
GG: what?
CG: OKAY OBVIOUSLY THIS IS TOO DIFFICULT FOR YOU.
CG: LET ME SIMPLIFY THINGS.
CG: I HATE YOU A LOT.
CG: AND WANTED TO KNOW IF YOU FELT THE SAME ABOUT ME.
CG: BECAUSE IF YOU DO I WAS THINKING MAYBE WE COULD DUEL SOMETIME?
CG: IT WOULD HAVE TO BE IN THE FURTHEST RING BUT THAT WOULD BE FITTINGLY AWFUL.
CG: MAYBE MAKE IT OFFICIAL I DON'T KNOW.
GG: karkat
CG: WHAT?
GG: you make it sound really weird when you put it like that
GG: but
GG: i don't hate you like that
GG: i think i might have a little while ago but that's changed
GG: wow it's really weird to be saying this after so long but
GG: we got off on the wrong foot for a really long time
GG: can we try again?
GG: i think i'd like to try and be friends with you karkat
-- carcinoGeneticist [CG] is now an idle chum! --
GG: ...karkat?
GG: hello?
CG: FUCK.
-- carcinoGeneticist [CG] ceased trolling gardenGnostic [GG] --
Pairing: One-sided Karkat ♠ Jade
Rating: PG?! PG-13 for Karkat, I guess.
Word Count: 952
Summary: It doesn't take much for a change of heart- but the damage done is another story.
Disclaimer: This was supposed to be so much angstier I do not even. HOMESTUCK IS NOT MINE.
It hadn't always been like this.
Jade had hated him too, once. Certainly she didn't despise him to the degree he would have liked, but it still worked. The insults she flung could nearly keep up with his own, and she was so scathing sometimes that Karkat could almost pretend she was right there in the same room, glaring at him from behind those ridiculous lenses.
It had worked, that brief time spent conversing online. Karkat had actually allowed himself to hate her properly, once he realized she wasn't like her brother. (A split second wondering if he had a type or something, before it was hastily dismissed in favor of another message calling him an insufferable jerk.) Jade, unlike John, could find it in herself to hate. More specifically, she could and did, and the object of that hate was Karkat.
He couldn't have been more pleased, really. It was stupid, throwing himself at this possibility so readily, as though she couldn't easily yank the rug out from beneath him with a few simple words.
It had probably changed the second time Jade fell asleep, the first time Karkat was there when she woke up in the furthest ring. He'd been perched at the foot of her bed, bristling at the gods with his shoulders hunched. She could only see his back, but there was no doubt he had his teeth bared too. To Jade he had seemed like a cat, puffed up to try and look scary.
But beneath the prickly exterior, she could tell he was just as scared as she was. Maybe even more so. That threw her off, really, the thought that this person- no, this troll would be so terrified of the same thing Feferi had tried to convince her was harmless. It made him seem more real, more likable, not as if his only purpose in life was to terrorize her.
And thinking about it, that had been her opinion of him before. It hadn't occurred to her that he wasn't just words on a screen. Embarrassing in hindsight, but easily fixable.
Finally, he noticed she was awake, just sitting quietly behind him and watching. His cheeks took on a warmer grey tinge, and he scowled.
"What the fuck are you doing awake? Like you have time for that! Go back to sleep- or wake up, or whatever. You can come play with these fuckers later." He huffed.
Then, as though an afterthought, though he didn't let her so much as get a word in edgewise. "Figure out a way to wake me up too, while you're at it. I don't have time for this either."
She opened her mouth to snap something derisive at him- like he had any right to boss her around! But the world was already fading around her, and he cocked an eyebrow with something almost close to a smile before turning his back to her.
More like a dog than a cat, she revised. Cats had never been good about keeping watch.
---
-- carcinoGeneticist [CG] began trolling gardenGnostic [GG] --
CG: REALLY.
CG: OF ALL THE WAYS TO WAKE ME UP YOUR SILLY HUMAN THINKPAN SOMEHOW DECIDED IT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO TELL THE BLIND TROLL TO LICK ME INTO THE WAKING WORLD.
CG: DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW REVOLTING THAT IS.
CG: NO. YOU DON'T SO DON'T EVEN START TYPING THAT ANSWER.
GG: actually i do
GG: bec wakes me up like that sometimes
CG: OKAY THAT CANNOT BE EVEN POSSIBLY HEALTHY.
CG: THAT DOG CANNOT EVEN BE CALLED A DOG ANYMORE IT REALLY GOT ITS MUTANT DROOL ALL OVER YOU?
CG: DISGUSTING.
CG: HOW HAVE YOU NOT SOMEHOW BECOME DUMBER BECAUSE OF THAT.
CG: ASSUMING THAT IT'S POSSIBLE.
GG: :T
GG: why are you always so mean?
GG: there's really no reason to be
CG: BECAUSE I AM A HORRIBLE TERRIBLE NO GOOD VERY BAD TROLL.
CG: LOOK I MADE A REFERENCE TO YOUR SILLY HUMAN LITERATURE.
CG: AND IT'S BECAUSE I HATE EVERYONE.
CG: ESPECIALLY YOU.
CG: ACTUALLY I WANTED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT THAT.
GG: what?
CG: I ABSOLUTELY LOATHE YOU.
CG: IT'S KIND OF AMAZING HOW MUCH I DESPISE YOU JADE.
GG: why are you telling me this??
CG: BECAUSE I WANT TO ASK YOU SOMETHING.
CG: ACTUALLY I SHOULD PROBABLY CHECK HOW YOU FEEL FIRST, EVEN THOUGH I'M PRETTY MUCH POSITIVE ALREADY.
GG: karkat this is kind of really weird...
CG: SHUT UP THIS IS REALLY AWKWARD.
CG: STOP INTERRUPTING ME WHEN I'M TRYING TO TOUCH ON A SENSITIVE SUBJECT OKAY.
GG: :T
CG: JADE WHAT ARE YOUR FEELINGS ABOUT ME EXACTLY?
GG: what?
CG: OKAY OBVIOUSLY THIS IS TOO DIFFICULT FOR YOU.
CG: LET ME SIMPLIFY THINGS.
CG: I HATE YOU A LOT.
CG: AND WANTED TO KNOW IF YOU FELT THE SAME ABOUT ME.
CG: BECAUSE IF YOU DO I WAS THINKING MAYBE WE COULD DUEL SOMETIME?
CG: IT WOULD HAVE TO BE IN THE FURTHEST RING BUT THAT WOULD BE FITTINGLY AWFUL.
CG: MAYBE MAKE IT OFFICIAL I DON'T KNOW.
GG: karkat
CG: WHAT?
GG: you make it sound really weird when you put it like that
GG: but
GG: i don't hate you like that
GG: i think i might have a little while ago but that's changed
GG: wow it's really weird to be saying this after so long but
GG: we got off on the wrong foot for a really long time
GG: can we try again?
GG: i think i'd like to try and be friends with you karkat
-- carcinoGeneticist [CG] is now an idle chum! --
GG: ...karkat?
GG: hello?
CG: FUCK.
-- carcinoGeneticist [CG] ceased trolling gardenGnostic [GG] --