chrysanthemum
chrysanthemum by heartshaker
jinki/minho
notes;
1st of my flower-themed drabble series.
{a red chrysanthemum is for love
it's the most painful feeling, the moment minho realises he's fallen for him.
he's never felt anything like it. it feels as though a knife has carved a hole through his sternum and an iron hand proceeded to tear his heart from his chest through there. it's as though fate is rubbing the truth into his face.
「his heart has been stolen by him」
jinki has somehow taken hold of his heart, and minho knows from the twisting he feels in his chest that he is not returning it anytime soon.
the more he thinks about it, the more trouble he has doing anything. eating, sleeping, focusing, working, breathing is even hard.
the second he hands jinki the red chrysanthemum, he regrets it. not really because he is having second thoughts about having done so. it is because before he even looks at the leader's expression, he has already expected the rejection.
"minho... i.."
the older is trying not to hurt him, and while minho appreciates the gesture, it only draws out the painful moment. he smiles faintly, and surprises himself by managing such a feat.
"it's okay. sorry for.. bothering you, hyung."
as he walks away, minho decides that he has changed his mind.
rejection was by far the more painful feeling.
「because he forgot to take back his heart」