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I finally finished my life sized self portrait and it's ok. Not the best but good work for my standards. Considering the fact it has consumed my life for almost a week I hope I do well on it.
I picked out bridesmaids dresses. Wedding isn't consuming my life as much as I wish it was. I wanted to be one of those girls who could plan everything and make everything amazing and I just dont have the time or the engery for it. I feel like Im setteling for what I dont exactly love on almost every aspect of this day.... This day that feels like years away is just around the corrner. October 10th will be here in no time. I wonder if being married will really be that different? I doubt it we already have the kids, the house, the bills, the jointly owned possessions, hopes, dreams. I wonder if we will be married forever.. I hope so, I know I'm in it for the long haul. I know eventually one of us will get bored or tired or screw up but I hope we will be strong enough to pull through. I dont believe in second marriages. Not to say that I dont think people sould do it, I just think more people should do it right the first time so they dont need a divorce. That probally sounds horrible and idealistic. People change and they fall out of love. I just dont understand that.
I start Moore on the 19th and on the 18th Im going to go to the fashion show down town. The woman who helped me get in sent me two free tickets. I'm very excited. I don't really want to t take Mitch because I dont think he'll enjoy/appericate it but Im going to ask him first. If he doesnt go who will go with me? anyone free may 18th 6 pm?
Everytime I think of it I see myself backstage, checking the clothes making sure they are just right. No, perfect. I imagine what I would make if me theme was All decked out in Navy and white.. yes a Nautilus theme. In my head I design the clothes for my collection for my senior show. How would the models make-up look? their hair? their shoes? hummm.... In my head, all of it in my head.
Nicole told me she is moving to CA in June (not my sister, Goth Nicole... you hear that Erica?) I dont know why. But that will be the 4th person I know to move there this year. Is there something there I'm missing? I have no desire to go there, let alone move there. I'd rather do the whole East coast thing. CA is to hot and far. Why not NY? its dirty, but beautiful.
I need to shower. the pastel covered look just doesnt work for me.
Ps Im selling my laptop to get a MAC for school. Anyone interested??
I picked out bridesmaids dresses. Wedding isn't consuming my life as much as I wish it was. I wanted to be one of those girls who could plan everything and make everything amazing and I just dont have the time or the engery for it. I feel like Im setteling for what I dont exactly love on almost every aspect of this day.... This day that feels like years away is just around the corrner. October 10th will be here in no time. I wonder if being married will really be that different? I doubt it we already have the kids, the house, the bills, the jointly owned possessions, hopes, dreams. I wonder if we will be married forever.. I hope so, I know I'm in it for the long haul. I know eventually one of us will get bored or tired or screw up but I hope we will be strong enough to pull through. I dont believe in second marriages. Not to say that I dont think people sould do it, I just think more people should do it right the first time so they dont need a divorce. That probally sounds horrible and idealistic. People change and they fall out of love. I just dont understand that.
I start Moore on the 19th and on the 18th Im going to go to the fashion show down town. The woman who helped me get in sent me two free tickets. I'm very excited. I don't really want to t take Mitch because I dont think he'll enjoy/appericate it but Im going to ask him first. If he doesnt go who will go with me? anyone free may 18th 6 pm?
Everytime I think of it I see myself backstage, checking the clothes making sure they are just right. No, perfect. I imagine what I would make if me theme was All decked out in Navy and white.. yes a Nautilus theme. In my head I design the clothes for my collection for my senior show. How would the models make-up look? their hair? their shoes? hummm.... In my head, all of it in my head.
Nicole told me she is moving to CA in June (not my sister, Goth Nicole... you hear that Erica?) I dont know why. But that will be the 4th person I know to move there this year. Is there something there I'm missing? I have no desire to go there, let alone move there. I'd rather do the whole East coast thing. CA is to hot and far. Why not NY? its dirty, but beautiful.
I need to shower. the pastel covered look just doesnt work for me.
Ps Im selling my laptop to get a MAC for school. Anyone interested??