death surrounds

[untouched_mind]

 the seasons no longer change its always winter
always reminding me when i was with her
food has lost all its taste
my heart has no reason to race
i look into the mirror and no longer see a face
my heart has turned cold
just waiting to die when its old
i shouldve listened to what i was told
that youd break my heart without remorse
that your heart was just as coarse
i let u in with no use of force
u broke everything and walked away
without ever thinking of me day after day
and im stuck here cleaning ur mess
wishing for the angel of death
colors are no longer bright
just dull as if consumed by night
i look at the earth outside
and all i see is nothing alive
the grass and trees begin to fade
and dirt and rocks reside where they once laid
ice ingulfs all that was once pretty
everything reflects whats in me
cold dark and lonely
the silence no longer hurts
its like my senses no longer work
without her the world is dead all around
grass and flowers no longer cover the ground
death and silence is all i found
with every blink comes a tear
with every blink some kind of new fear
it seems im the only one here
i no longer smile
i forgot how: its been awhile
i no longer laugh just cry
i stopped wondering why
tears fall now as if they where involuntary
now that feeling has become voluntary
ive locked myself inside this jail
until i take the plunge to hell
or if shell ever come back.... i can no longer tell