Jun 05, 2005 01:45
"can we please be civil cuz im trying trying trying to forget you"
i really wish with my entire lil heart that my camera was fixed. i ve been itchin to take pictures of something, someone beautiful. i wanna write everything but theres nothing to talk about right now except my own life and i m trying to break away from writing about my own life. gimmie an idea, jerks. i really wish i could be a famous punkrocklady so i could write really bad lyrics and get away with it and have people call me a writing genius...more than anything i want to be a fuckin good writter.
ponx shows are fun. except when EVERYONE around you is fucked up but its nice even though your boyfriend is far too sweaty and not wearing a shirt, it still feels good to cuddle. he thinks youre gorgeous and shoves every guy who even comes close to touchin you, bouncin off other boys on the edge of the pit.
i always feel like if i dont take care of people, NO ONE else will. i m way too motherly for my own good. my maternal habits really get in the way sometimes. i need to relax. i cant save everyone even though i wish i could save some people, like liz whos dying and her back is bones and i want people to be happy so badly.
" and suicide would be nice and fine,
guns are outta reach,
i just dont give a damn to make it out the door"