what do you do if your just not ready to grow up?

[untouchable628]

Do you ever feel like it takes forever to get to some point in your life, and when you're there it passes you by faster than Jeff Gordon going past the finish line in the Daytona 500? Its like ive waited my whole life to be this age..a senior in high school. But now that its here...theres not much left. Its all just been hitting me lately. Soccer

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Re: :o( Its sad

[anonymous]

Hilz...We need a 100 hour talk we have so much to catch up on and I mean lots...Everyone right now is in the EXACT same spot as you so do not feel alone...This is the year your supposed to spend with your friends get the bonds tighter and ensure that they'll stay after high school...yet it seems like everyone is falling apart...not so much the friendship but everyone is so caught up with the future, school ending, work, and whatever else life seems to be pitching are way that we hardly have time for each other. I love my friends without a doubt, and that def. includes you, and I find it beyond sad that friends seem to not have time for each other during the days you need each other the most. I'm clueless as to what I want to do, where I'm going to go, and where I'll eventually end up. I do know however when I reach that point I will always remembere those who have been there with me each step taken in my life. I wish days were 48 hours and I wish school was only 2 of those hours. It's funny they say senior year is supposed to be the best time of your life yet I'm found every night wanting to go back to freshman year and repeat EVERYTHING over again, don't get me wrong I'm excited about going up, I'm just not excited about what comes along with the title of being "grown-up." It's funny how senior year tends to give you such an incredible reflection on everything, honestly I find myself sitting at home more and more, those who have been close to me lately seem to be completely falling apart, watching family and friends basically disowning each other and I find it amazing. We try so hard to hold on yet we push each other away at the same time. That has a hugh long complicated story behind the meaning of that, and I doubt anyone cares or would be interested in my viewpoints, they're quite confusing and hard to explain, Just like you I have a lot to say, but in contrast I'm not exactly the best at wording those things. I think I went off into more than what I set off to type to you, all I know is your not the only one and all your fears you have is the exact same thing everyone is feeling regardless of what they claim, everyone says they can't wait for it to be over, yet next year they'll be dying to go back, not to all the gossip and bullshit, but to how we had it, so easy, carefree of the "big stuff," and are friends to hang*out with us, you never know how much everything means to you or how well you have it until its gone, all the petty bullshit people are doing these days are going to be looked upon in the future by those people and regret is going to flash before them. The way people have been acting lately, whether you have experienced it or not, has been so GRRR not even a word to describe it, stupid jsut doesn't cover it. In the past week or so I have seen friends sell out on each other, back stab, and basically take over the job title of an enemy on poeple who have always been there for them, it's our senior year and they're doing this, it's retarded and I just don't get it, lately I have been sitting back watching all this and have no idea how to react, I don't know I think I went off again on a road unknown to most at this point, Hilz i love you and if you ever need anything you know how to reach me, sry about the speel (spelling) lots of things on my mind just like yourself. KiMMiE