here she blows.. another novel
so yeah.. i paid for mah prom ticket today.. i guess i'm going alone.. *sigh*.. kinda sux seeing as every year that i've gone to dances i've gone with ah girl cuz i didn't have ah date..
-9th grade: Louis was suppose to go with meh.. but he never did.. went with jessika (louis ruined the whole night)..
-10th grade: no one asked meh.. went with jessika (still had fun)
-11th grade: no one asked meh.. went with nikky (it blew so incredibly bad!)
-12th grade: uhh.. ah few people asked meh but i think the guy that i wanted to ask meh didn't.. went with nikky (got there 3 hours late.. it sucked!!!!)
ugh.. i shouldn't have got mah hopes up.. but oh well.. it sux, i always thought that at least for prom i'd have ah date.. lol.. not gunna talk about it anymore.. i'm just gunna end up getting mad.. ashly, kathleen and i think katherine are gunna be going solo too.. it's not the same with girls though..
anyways.. today was ah fairly okay day.. school went by kinda fast since it's thursday.. after i got home i went to sleep (which i've been doing everyday after i get home for some reason)
lol some weird spanish kid was staring at meh this morning when i walked past.. then he said something muchacha and then his other friend turned around and looked at meh.. and then one of them smiled.. *GrOsS* i hate people looking at meh.. it makes meh feel self-conscious.. like i have shit on mah pants or something..
then during lunch this chinese kid, Tang (yes that is really his name), was in the line behind meh to get his prom ticket and he tried to go in front of meh and i guess he was xpecting meh to just let him cuz he's popular or something.. lol kinda funny watching the look on his face when i pushed him and told him to move.. i hate people who think they're hot shit.. assholes
what else.. what else.. uhh brandon.. dunno what's going on with him.. i mean us.. ugh w/e.. sometimes i think things are going good.. and other times i don't even kno.. i'm hoping for the best but preparing for the worst.. and i feel bad cuz i stay soooo sheltered.. i don't wanna.. but i do.. it's an immediate response.. gotta work on getting over that fear.. kinda sux.. but the last thing i want is to feel the way i did before.. ugh it makes meh cringe thinking about it.. i REALLY hope that it doesn't turn out like before..
it's weird.. how much i actually care.. lol.. i got so use to being the one to drop someone.. just talking to ah guy for ah little and that being it.. no feelings were involved.. and i didn't really care if the other person got hurt as long as i didn't.. i guess it was like mah own bitter sweet revenge for the shit that brance put meh through.. stupid bastard..
anyways.. ugh.. another novel.. blah
-9th grade: Louis was suppose to go with meh.. but he never did.. went with jessika (louis ruined the whole night)..
-10th grade: no one asked meh.. went with jessika (still had fun)
-11th grade: no one asked meh.. went with nikky (it blew so incredibly bad!)
-12th grade: uhh.. ah few people asked meh but i think the guy that i wanted to ask meh didn't.. went with nikky (got there 3 hours late.. it sucked!!!!)
ugh.. i shouldn't have got mah hopes up.. but oh well.. it sux, i always thought that at least for prom i'd have ah date.. lol.. not gunna talk about it anymore.. i'm just gunna end up getting mad.. ashly, kathleen and i think katherine are gunna be going solo too.. it's not the same with girls though..
anyways.. today was ah fairly okay day.. school went by kinda fast since it's thursday.. after i got home i went to sleep (which i've been doing everyday after i get home for some reason)
lol some weird spanish kid was staring at meh this morning when i walked past.. then he said something muchacha and then his other friend turned around and looked at meh.. and then one of them smiled.. *GrOsS* i hate people looking at meh.. it makes meh feel self-conscious.. like i have shit on mah pants or something..
then during lunch this chinese kid, Tang (yes that is really his name), was in the line behind meh to get his prom ticket and he tried to go in front of meh and i guess he was xpecting meh to just let him cuz he's popular or something.. lol kinda funny watching the look on his face when i pushed him and told him to move.. i hate people who think they're hot shit.. assholes
what else.. what else.. uhh brandon.. dunno what's going on with him.. i mean us.. ugh w/e.. sometimes i think things are going good.. and other times i don't even kno.. i'm hoping for the best but preparing for the worst.. and i feel bad cuz i stay soooo sheltered.. i don't wanna.. but i do.. it's an immediate response.. gotta work on getting over that fear.. kinda sux.. but the last thing i want is to feel the way i did before.. ugh it makes meh cringe thinking about it.. i REALLY hope that it doesn't turn out like before..
it's weird.. how much i actually care.. lol.. i got so use to being the one to drop someone.. just talking to ah guy for ah little and that being it.. no feelings were involved.. and i didn't really care if the other person got hurt as long as i didn't.. i guess it was like mah own bitter sweet revenge for the shit that brance put meh through.. stupid bastard..
anyways.. ugh.. another novel.. blah