Mar 13, 2013 00:36
Today was kind of an odd day for me.
I think today made me realised one of the biggest significant changes that I will now have to face daily. When you're with someone, any free time you have is automatically aligned to theirs and you will automatically spend it with them. Well at least, that's how it was in my case. But now, not having someone who is willing to spend every waking moment being with you there makes things so different. And it's a little scary. I'm not that good at being by myself ...yet ...so it is kind of a hard thing for me.
Another thing that has become apparent today is my automatic nature to shy away.
There was this guy in my class. He was talkative, he remembered me from last week and instantly tried to become friends with me. I realised that on instinct, I started to shy away and almost contemplated sitting alone rather than next to him. But then I realised what I was doing. I realised how silly I've become over the past three years. Whilst, I've made plenty of male friends, I dare say that there are quite a number that I could've been better friends with if I did not have this strange habit. And because of this string of thought that occurred in the mere seconds of choosing which seat to take, I became his friend. And he turned out to be in nearly all of my classes, plus in my specific research topic group.
Turned out to be an okay day after all.