What a lie
I feel like I should update this ..unfortunately back to my terrible news.
Actually, I'm more annoyed than anything considering my previous post was true for about only a week more until shit just hit the fan.
Since then, I've been in the worst mood ever and have probably felt the worst I've ever had. I've contemplated so many things during this time period - of course, my rational mind tends to fix things before it gets out of hand - but the fact is, I've really considered doing stupid things. And I pretty much hate it. I hate feeling like this so much. Sometimes, I really do wish that I could go through with some of these acts just so my mind would shut the hell up. Sigh. I'm just feeling so lost and so angry and so sad and ... just ..so ..alone.
I've been doing my best to smile and to go out and be happy.
But it's so much of a chore to try and do these things. I just want to curl up and never leave my room. I really just hate everything right now.
Actually, I'm more annoyed than anything considering my previous post was true for about only a week more until shit just hit the fan.
Since then, I've been in the worst mood ever and have probably felt the worst I've ever had. I've contemplated so many things during this time period - of course, my rational mind tends to fix things before it gets out of hand - but the fact is, I've really considered doing stupid things. And I pretty much hate it. I hate feeling like this so much. Sometimes, I really do wish that I could go through with some of these acts just so my mind would shut the hell up. Sigh. I'm just feeling so lost and so angry and so sad and ... just ..so ..alone.
I've been doing my best to smile and to go out and be happy.
But it's so much of a chore to try and do these things. I just want to curl up and never leave my room. I really just hate everything right now.