My thoughts
So things haven't been the best lately.
I had an interview yesterday; and although as relieved as I am, I'm still feeling quite horrible.
The day before the interview, I had texted my friend asking her about her timetable; going to rant to her about how I'm scared about next year. She didn't reply. But that was normal, she used to reply at like 3am sometimes.
But then an unknown number called me. It was her sister. When she said who she was, my immediate thought was that maybe j had.a new number or something. But then she said "I'm sorry to bring bad news...." and I stopped in my tracks, in the laundry room, halfway of putting my shoes away. My second thought was that maybe j is just in the hospital, doesn't mean anything....
But I knew deep down, that it wasn't that.
She explained that j was in an accident...and then she didn't make it. I was speechless. My voice croaked to apologize and say my condolences. I mumbled something to my mum and went straight to my room. I cried for a long time; until my black eyeliner ran down my face.
I haven't been able to stop thinking about it since. I keep crying randomly and having my doubts. I miss her a lot and I'll never forget her.
I think I might consider counseling with all this stress and sadness...
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