Fear
It's been something that I kept inside me for awhile now. I guess.
But since it really does seem to be affecting me quite greatly, I thought it would benefit me a lot if I were to write it out. Maybe it'll help me sort through my thoughts and rid of the negative ones. Maybe.
I guess after that incident, I haven't really been the same.
I'm just so afraid of everything. And I don't know how to share how I'm feeling. But I'm just really afraid.
I'm so close to breaking down every single time I see someone walk away. And sitting by myself feels suffocating; but at the same time, I can't bear to face the majority of people with a fake smile.
Well, what I'm trying to explain is that I'm still recovering.
I know I wasn't the one personally in the hospital. But I am still recovering from it.
Just the thought of how I felt during those hours of when it was so unknown, still makes my legs shake and my heart ache. It really does still scare me. I'm just afraid of feeling like that again. Of just not knowing and being so helpless.
I know I'll have to learn to overcome this eventually. I don't know how much it's going to help, but I also bought some anti-stress Natural Medicine. I hope this will help ease the frequent headaches that I seem to be getting.
But since it really does seem to be affecting me quite greatly, I thought it would benefit me a lot if I were to write it out. Maybe it'll help me sort through my thoughts and rid of the negative ones. Maybe.
I guess after that incident, I haven't really been the same.
I'm just so afraid of everything. And I don't know how to share how I'm feeling. But I'm just really afraid.
I'm so close to breaking down every single time I see someone walk away. And sitting by myself feels suffocating; but at the same time, I can't bear to face the majority of people with a fake smile.
Well, what I'm trying to explain is that I'm still recovering.
I know I wasn't the one personally in the hospital. But I am still recovering from it.
Just the thought of how I felt during those hours of when it was so unknown, still makes my legs shake and my heart ache. It really does still scare me. I'm just afraid of feeling like that again. Of just not knowing and being so helpless.
I know I'll have to learn to overcome this eventually. I don't know how much it's going to help, but I also bought some anti-stress Natural Medicine. I hope this will help ease the frequent headaches that I seem to be getting.