It's for the best you didn't listen
It's for the best we get our distance.
It is strange because I feel like I have grown and change and i am proud of myself. And yet, I haven't changed at all. The stability and even keel life that I found is beginning to feel like a noose, ever tightening. Suddenly, I am lashing out at the life I built and trying to tear it down. And somewhere inside of me the same nagging feeling grows. Am I doing this? Do I have an inability to be happy? Have I always been the problem?
And when I am my most vulnerable there is this one person, like a knight in shining armor, he comes charging ahead and makes me feel like a glow - like I shine. And right when I think that I had made a major mistake he is gone. Thank you. I don't know who I would be without you. But every time I feel weak, you make me feel stronger.
Okay - Time to put on my big girl pants. I have no idea where I will end up in life. But I do know where I am now, and I am happy. Really, what else can you ask for?