numb toes
is it the fact that i'm awake or is it the void...i don't seem to care that i have another final tomorrow. have i studied enough or am i just tired of this place, this situation? i sold my soul for the taste of freedom. every time i let my mind wander i salivate at the thought of a month long binge of relaxation. i tempted myself. and now i must pay for it. ugh. i want more. more smiles. this waiting is taking it's toll. but slowly. i think that's part of the torture. the slowness of time. at least i'll be done with my second exam by noon tomorrow. wish me luck.
i'm back. i think i have too much to think about when i don't have school to keep me occupied. rant rant rant. and we're off. i decided that pop culture is awful. and as obvious as that sounds, i don't mean like songs on the radio or hollywood movies...i mean all of it. forms of entertainment are total shit. or maybe what i'm looking for is so obscure that it's impossible to find and that makes it shit. i don't even know anymore. i can't listen to music because i analyze it too much. and i've decided that i can't choose movies because they always end up being some excuse for an independent art film. maybe i'm just fed up with life. but if i can;t be distracted by these things, then am i still human. fuck. i hate being all deep and bored. be tomorrow already please. so i can once again use my brain for hypothesis testing.
i'm back. i think i have too much to think about when i don't have school to keep me occupied. rant rant rant. and we're off. i decided that pop culture is awful. and as obvious as that sounds, i don't mean like songs on the radio or hollywood movies...i mean all of it. forms of entertainment are total shit. or maybe what i'm looking for is so obscure that it's impossible to find and that makes it shit. i don't even know anymore. i can't listen to music because i analyze it too much. and i've decided that i can't choose movies because they always end up being some excuse for an independent art film. maybe i'm just fed up with life. but if i can;t be distracted by these things, then am i still human. fuck. i hate being all deep and bored. be tomorrow already please. so i can once again use my brain for hypothesis testing.