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I carved half a heart
onto the top of my wrist
Maybe someday, someone will
show me what I really am
and he'll have the other half
tattooed onto the other side
so when we hold hands
his heart will interlock with mine.
Travis just came to the door. and I'm obviously still here, so I'm not going to school.
I'm not cut out for this kind of thing.
and I doubt I'll even go out tomorrow night.
I've been so apathetic lately.
but now I care.
I care a whole lot.
I care about what they think.
and what they feel.
Guh! I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep forever.
[start producing tears here]
I had a nice shower about a half hour ago. It was muchly needed. I didn't have one yesterday, because I slept in, so today I finally had one, and it was wonderful.
I'm cold. but I'm comfy. just wearing a red long-sleeve campus crew shirt with my navy noise pants & slippers. <3
I feel so... unwanted.
which I probably am.
all Andrew could talk about last night was Meredith. sure. go ahead and make me feel 10 times worse. As if I don't think about her alot already and miss her terribly, he brings her up every 5 seconds.
If I could, I'd turn back time. I'd start listening more & showing that I care more. I DO care, more than anyone could ever imagine, I just I don't show it very well.
perhaps she'll give me another chance? But right now, I can't even look her in the eyes.
onto the top of my wrist
Maybe someday, someone will
show me what I really am
and he'll have the other half
tattooed onto the other side
so when we hold hands
his heart will interlock with mine.
Travis just came to the door. and I'm obviously still here, so I'm not going to school.
I'm not cut out for this kind of thing.
and I doubt I'll even go out tomorrow night.
I've been so apathetic lately.
but now I care.
I care a whole lot.
I care about what they think.
and what they feel.
Guh! I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep forever.
[start producing tears here]
I had a nice shower about a half hour ago. It was muchly needed. I didn't have one yesterday, because I slept in, so today I finally had one, and it was wonderful.
I'm cold. but I'm comfy. just wearing a red long-sleeve campus crew shirt with my navy noise pants & slippers. <3
I feel so... unwanted.
which I probably am.
all Andrew could talk about last night was Meredith. sure. go ahead and make me feel 10 times worse. As if I don't think about her alot already and miss her terribly, he brings her up every 5 seconds.
If I could, I'd turn back time. I'd start listening more & showing that I care more. I DO care, more than anyone could ever imagine, I just I don't show it very well.
perhaps she'll give me another chance? But right now, I can't even look her in the eyes.