Never say goodbye
I have officially decided to take a break from LJ for an indefinite amount of time. Knowing me, it'll probably last two days but I'm hoping it will be for longer. I've come to the realization that I've grown too attached to this place, come to rely on it too much as a way to get my emotions out there when really I should probably keep those things to myself. The world doesn't need to know. And then when KJ... left it really hurt and again I realized just how codependent I've become to this place.
As a way to try to get away from that, I started writing in my personal journal again, writing real life things like I've been writing on here for the last couple months - and it feels good.
But I also need to do this for other reasons. I have a boyfriend who I love and with whom I only have a couple months left before we go off to separate universities and I want to be able to spend as much time with him as possible. I will also hopefully be working a lot to save up money for school next fall. (I just got back from registering for classes and I really, really feel like University of Nebraska is the best choice I could have made. It's so exciting.)
On top of that, I finally got my iPhone, which is totally amazing. And it really has all the internet I need on it, along with a lot of other stuff. So I'm really hoping to be spending as little time physically on my computer as possible.
Even though I will be leaving for awhile, though, if any of you ever need anything or want to talk, a lot of you have my phone number or the best e-mail to reach me at is lightcatastrophe@gmail.com.
I love you guys a lot - and I WILL be back. Stay in touch.