Part 2
You know what's really shitty.....the fact that something really crappy happens and the one person I want to talk to about it...is out of the question. I can't say anything.....because in some ways it could be called selfish...but in ANY other circumstance it wouldn't be. If I say what I want to, to the one person...it won't be good, so now I have to pretend those things weren't said and I have to act like it didn't happen and that IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME TO DEATH!!!
I don't understand what is wrong with me...I guess I just deserve this, and yeah, like I said earlier, I feel like everything I have known is being taken from underneath me, and being ripped away. I am not sure still if there is a purpose, other than, all I feel now is I have NOTHING left, and nothing left to give. I am completely empty, and drained and feel like nothing is worth it. Yeah, this is sort of depressing and I am sorry to those who read this, but it has not been the best last couple days....and actually I could use some prayer! Thanks....I know that I need that more than anything right now, but it's SO much easier to throw the towel in and say forget it...the next while is going to be very hard for me, but I am trying to realize that I should just forget everyone else, and concern myself with God and how He can help me, and grow me, and uplift me, instead of others bringing me down and making me feel cruddy.
I don't understand what is wrong with me...I guess I just deserve this, and yeah, like I said earlier, I feel like everything I have known is being taken from underneath me, and being ripped away. I am not sure still if there is a purpose, other than, all I feel now is I have NOTHING left, and nothing left to give. I am completely empty, and drained and feel like nothing is worth it. Yeah, this is sort of depressing and I am sorry to those who read this, but it has not been the best last couple days....and actually I could use some prayer! Thanks....I know that I need that more than anything right now, but it's SO much easier to throw the towel in and say forget it...the next while is going to be very hard for me, but I am trying to realize that I should just forget everyone else, and concern myself with God and how He can help me, and grow me, and uplift me, instead of others bringing me down and making me feel cruddy.