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so I'm kind of torn. On one hand I'm really fucking happy; I've made great friends, I'm enjoying myself, and I haven't been quite as stressed as I usually am. On the other hand though, I'm kind of panicking. I feel like I'm more focused on having a good time, instead of focusing on school. I know it's wrong, but goddamn...between my apparent bad social skills in high school and my overwhelmingly "protective" parents, I never got the chance to just let loose and carelessly enjoy myself in high school. So now, I'm at a point where I am, and I know it's only first semester of freshman year, but it kind of makes me think that I might not be taking things seriously enough. but then again, I don't think I've been overall happier than I am now...it's strange. but whatever; overall I cannot complain. One thing I'd really like to do now is just get the next 2 weeks over with and spend my week in Miami with my friends. I feel like I owe all of you an apology for any personal shit I've dragged any of you into during our friendships..I really have changed a lot since I've been here, and I do think that if you all met me now you would probably enjoy my company more; so I'm optimistic that if I see any of you when I'm home then our friendships will strengthen. so this is getting long-ish, and I always complain about long entries so I'm done. have a nice day!