Where have you BEEN all my life?
What uppp livejournal?
I totally forgot I was even registered to this site, since you know, myspace became so cool and all (NOT), I'm just a myspace whoreeee and I think it's funny to lurk people---me and Danielle do it regularly and then laugh at the "hand stretched out picture" or ANY picture of Amanda berthod because well, THAT girl sucks. I can't wait until Danielle beats her ass--but anywayyy.
I have to say, I have one of the most amazing best friends in the world. I'm simply in love with this girl--she's my soulmate. I said the other day 'I'm pefectly content with spending the rest of my life with you!" and not in an -ohh baby ohh baby way, I just love being with her, because she get's me, and no one else does. It's refreshing. It's like we lead the same life. The other day my car died and I called her to come get me as she pulls into the driveway she yells "I don't know how much help I'm going to be...my car just died too!" See what i'm talking about--we're the same person!
I've been keeping to myself lately--or trying to anyway--and it's funny that STILL when I don't talk to ANYONE, someone is still talking about ME...really--it's crazy, half the time I don't even know where they get the stuff they say--or where it comes from, it boggles my mind. Are there secret paparazzi are me at all times taking pictures of who I'm with and what I'm doing-because honestly, there must be-how else would they know the things they do? Or the people I haven't seen since graduation that say "Oh my god, I heard you're talking to blah blah" and I'm like "whaaaatt?". It's simply is mind blowing. But whatever, hey I think my life is interesting so if other people do too then that must mean I'm not a TOTAL loser, and hey, that's pretty cool.
I've been amazingly happy lately--which coud be in part to a certain someone--a certain boy whom I enjoy spending time with regularly. Danielle said she hasn't seen me like this since ******, and I really haven't been, it's nice to feel that way about someone. I mean- I am absolutely scared to death of getting hurt AGAIN, but I'm totally willing to take that chance with him because in reality, I probabaly will get hurt, but it's worth it for what I have right now...movies, laying in bed, sleeping completely entangled, falling sleep with your lips pressed because that's where you left off, and picking up exactly where you left off in the morning...phone calls that start with "hey beautiful, just calling to say hi, and see how your day is", butterflies, first kisses over and over, and feeling like for once, things are mysterious because you don't know every stupid thing about them--only the good stuff, and you'll learn the rest a little more at a time...but it's fine because it's new...and it's fun. And I'm crazzzyy about this boy <3 No names. No details. No drama because people know my business, it's perfect. And he comes with no strings attached which is perfect for me, because I have far too many myself to carry anyon elses.
Anyway. I miss the girls. I miss hanging out with Kait and Jordan and bitches we need to make this happen again soon, one night doesn't satisfy my needs, just so you know. I know you're both busy with school- I am too, but come Winter Break, no fucking excuses, because guess what? I KNOW WHERE YOU BOTH LIVE! Get at me when you're free, i'll be calling the both of you the second I have time to sit down and do so, things are crazy right now with finals, but just know I'm thinking about you.
And there is my update for probably the next four months seeing as thats the new trend...it's so funny I used to be on this thing a million times a day updating. Now I guess I have a little less free time which makes me feel better about myself.
Peace!