i got hit by a paintball...
i have yet to tell you how i feel. i just haven't gotten completely wasted to do so. and that is all i am needing right now. but no matter what i think or try or say you may in return be akward, uncomfortable, and resistent to speak or be near. what am i to do? stay without, be consistent with my time spent with friends, and delete the reactions i get when i hear you. bear with me in this matter. it is not meant to be depressing. here is the truth in my life that i allow myself to speak of only in my dear livejournal. i might as well quit now before i send out the wrong intentions. hopefully i can breathe easier now that i've gotten this piece off my chest.