Don't wanna be canonized
a) I'm in Santa Fe. Last night One World Coffee Shop had a save-our-business show that lasted until 7 AM. I ended up meeting and playing mandolin with an endearingly shy music major named Mike Lawless. The night also provided for some canoodling- the good kind where you trip and fall and embarass yourself and the other person kisses your hand and makes you feel better. Hubba hubba.
b) I'm scared of the world. I'm scared that I won't be motivated to spontaneity, or to communication or passion or anything but routine. I know that I'm wasting a year in the sick embrace of convention, and I'm afraid that I won't know how to unwaste myself when the circumstances evolve.