Love woke me up this morning.
This morning I went downstairs right after I woke up, and kissed my mom then came back up. She was on the phone. As I was leaving the room I heard her talking about how God works. All I could think was "whoa it's awesome to hear God's name constantly, when it isn't being used as a swear." I love that God is in the center of my home. He knows that is what I need to keep going. I need His strength and reformation daily. So a little while after I woke up(At 10! :-p) I grabbed my journal, Bible and brio magazine and laid down on my bed. I have yet to open my Bible(and it's 11 now) and God spoke to me. I am not in a place now where I'm like...hey He told me something and now I know what I'll be doing for the rest of my life. No..He brought me comfort. In brio, I read an article called In Step, by a 20 or so year old girl. She's talking about how she loves the ocean and how she can feel God there in it'ssounds and it's beauty. So before I started reading, I said...God..I am always heaing people say that they asked you to speak to them and You did...so, would you speak to me? Specifically through this article...because I know the author has her focus on You and You find joy in her. I don't know why out of all the articles in this magazine I think God would speak to me through this one, but somehow, I knew this was where I wanted or needed to hear Him. So anyway, the first sentence is "I woke up and had no clue what to do with my life." hahah...alright raise your hand if you agree that that is where I am at at this point in my life. :-p
I am probably going to wind up writing the whole article down.. I love this...
"The day stretched out like beach days do- sunny, sandy and peaceful. No thundering voice gave me an itinerary for my life; rather, a thought came to me, I wanted to tell God that for every ounce of fear and uncertainty there was a tiny speck of a girl brave enough to trust Him with her whole heart, not just pieces of it spared by my own dreams, hurts and heartbreaks....
As the sun set, a pink wash of light stretched across the fading sky. One star. One moon. One huge ocean, silver in the evening light. Before I knew it,I was holding up my hands, spinning in circles in the sand on the edge of the ocean"(also sound like something I would do? umm duh :)) *this is one of my favorite parts-"MY DELIGHT IN GOD FELT LIKE PURE FREEDOM" That is why I sing and dance at work, I feel FREE in Christ. I am delighted in Him and He brings me this amazing joy that I can't explain. It's cool to hear someone else put MY EXACT FEELINGS in words for me.
k so I'm gonna keep going...
"My only answer, my big empiphany is this: God loves me. He cares about every moment, every detail. Where I go, what I do, and how God uses me is tied into my personal relationship with Him. As I enjoy His presence, little by little I figure out what comes next. Sometimes where I'm going isn't about a destination but what He's showing me on the way there. My past, my future, even my now is no surprise to Him...
When I think about me, how small and insignificant I feel, I remember He didn't just speak me into existence. He created me with His own hands. I forget that my life is all about Him; if He's my focus, everything will come together. The way I feel when I look at the ocean is not remotely close to how overjoyed God feels when He looks at me. If He loves us enough to create us for His glory and pleasure, I know He's going to walk with us every step of the way....
The realization came in a heavenly embrace on the seashore that evening, in the assurance of His love, in the feeling of total safety, not in some huge thundering way, but in a sweet, quiet moment. It came in knowing He knew my heart so well and how I love all things beautiful and romantic. He gave me a memory I will never forget.... HE MAKES ME FEEL BEAUTIFUL....Now I'm slowly getting farther away from the ocean. But the romance hasn't faded.. Neither has the smile that I can't seem to wipe off my face."
I am probably going to wind up writing the whole article down.. I love this...
"The day stretched out like beach days do- sunny, sandy and peaceful. No thundering voice gave me an itinerary for my life; rather, a thought came to me, I wanted to tell God that for every ounce of fear and uncertainty there was a tiny speck of a girl brave enough to trust Him with her whole heart, not just pieces of it spared by my own dreams, hurts and heartbreaks....
As the sun set, a pink wash of light stretched across the fading sky. One star. One moon. One huge ocean, silver in the evening light. Before I knew it,I was holding up my hands, spinning in circles in the sand on the edge of the ocean"(also sound like something I would do? umm duh :)) *this is one of my favorite parts-"MY DELIGHT IN GOD FELT LIKE PURE FREEDOM" That is why I sing and dance at work, I feel FREE in Christ. I am delighted in Him and He brings me this amazing joy that I can't explain. It's cool to hear someone else put MY EXACT FEELINGS in words for me.
k so I'm gonna keep going...
"My only answer, my big empiphany is this: God loves me. He cares about every moment, every detail. Where I go, what I do, and how God uses me is tied into my personal relationship with Him. As I enjoy His presence, little by little I figure out what comes next. Sometimes where I'm going isn't about a destination but what He's showing me on the way there. My past, my future, even my now is no surprise to Him...
When I think about me, how small and insignificant I feel, I remember He didn't just speak me into existence. He created me with His own hands. I forget that my life is all about Him; if He's my focus, everything will come together. The way I feel when I look at the ocean is not remotely close to how overjoyed God feels when He looks at me. If He loves us enough to create us for His glory and pleasure, I know He's going to walk with us every step of the way....
The realization came in a heavenly embrace on the seashore that evening, in the assurance of His love, in the feeling of total safety, not in some huge thundering way, but in a sweet, quiet moment. It came in knowing He knew my heart so well and how I love all things beautiful and romantic. He gave me a memory I will never forget.... HE MAKES ME FEEL BEAUTIFUL....Now I'm slowly getting farther away from the ocean. But the romance hasn't faded.. Neither has the smile that I can't seem to wipe off my face."