Neither Here nor There
I was up to the wee hours of the night last night... sitting thinks lurking around on the various online communities. I don't know why but i cant sleep past 8 hours now.... it really sucks. I've lost that whole sleeping 12-14 hours thing. I work again today and I'm lacking the motivation to be chipper to those needy hogie customers. I'm not sure how to go about some of my current situations. Still indifferent, still a tad bit lost, still being selfish I guess. I realized I really only have like 4 friends and I dispise a large amount of the population. I'm totally enraptured with him and its tearing me apart. I was enraptured before and that has dwindled away. I've tried to bring it back, I've tried to return to the previous hardcore devoted state, where my world revovled around his every move. It seems impossible to go back to that, I want to though.