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finals are going to suck the life out of me. i think i have bronchitis again. a week from today ill be home for a month, i dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. i miss tap dancing. that may seem random but im watching white christmas and seeing all the dancing they're doing makes me want to dance too. i wish i was an old time movie star. i also wish i didnt feel like crap. i want to go outside and play in the snow. this is the first year that i missed decorating the house for christmas, that makes me kinda sad. i wish christmas could always be the way you saw it when you were a kid. how everything was so magical and special. it could be freezing outside and you'd still want just five more minutes to play in the snow. i miss making hot chocolate and sitting under a million blankets on snow days. i miss my mom. i miss feeling loved. i really need a boyfriend. theres a guy here i like, alot. hes shy and cute and he makes my stomach flip. now if only he liked me too i wouldnt need anything else. sigh, boys suck. my mom told me i dress like a truck driver and thats why i dont have a boyfriend. but i want someone that dosnt care about the way i dress, and likes me bc im me, ya know? oh well im getting used to being alone i guess.