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For a while now i've been miserable with the way thigns are around here and the way my life has been going. I havent been fully happy with anything at all really for a long time. I've somehow managed to contain it all inside of me and not let any of it get to me...Up until about 10 minutes ago that is.
Josh, my best friend of 5 years joined the Air force shortly after we graduated and I havent seen a whole lot of him since he joined. He's been stationed in South Carolina for a while now and comes home every so often but is only home like 2 days each time. Well we got to hang out like we did back in the old days of high school for the first time since he left. It made me realize how much I miss the way things were back in the summer after graduation. We were all care free and had so much fun hanging out with everyone and just never having to worry about who did what because it never mattered and I was soo happy all the time due to the people i was always around and how simple things were and all. Now it seems nearly impossible for me to be truly happy. Always having to live up to some standard someone has set for me or something. I hate it.
But anyways He just left here about 15 minutes ago to drive back up to SC. He ships out soon to go over seas. It's rough and it sucks. He's like a big brother to me and I look up to him even though he's only 13 days older than me. But anyways I miss my best friend, it's that simple, I dont think I've really admitted that until tonight.
God bless and good luck.
Josh, my best friend of 5 years joined the Air force shortly after we graduated and I havent seen a whole lot of him since he joined. He's been stationed in South Carolina for a while now and comes home every so often but is only home like 2 days each time. Well we got to hang out like we did back in the old days of high school for the first time since he left. It made me realize how much I miss the way things were back in the summer after graduation. We were all care free and had so much fun hanging out with everyone and just never having to worry about who did what because it never mattered and I was soo happy all the time due to the people i was always around and how simple things were and all. Now it seems nearly impossible for me to be truly happy. Always having to live up to some standard someone has set for me or something. I hate it.
But anyways He just left here about 15 minutes ago to drive back up to SC. He ships out soon to go over seas. It's rough and it sucks. He's like a big brother to me and I look up to him even though he's only 13 days older than me. But anyways I miss my best friend, it's that simple, I dont think I've really admitted that until tonight.
God bless and good luck.