i am sorry i cannot make things right.
for the past month and a half now i have had no real form of transportation. i have not been living at home and for the most part my new living arrangments have been extremely delightful. it is nice finally knowing what it means to have a real family who actually cares about what goes on in your life. however, the story unfortunately does not end there....
in the past month and a half i have some how managed to enrage and/or irrate everyone i am close to. i lost one best friend because apparently i no longer have time for her. well here is how i feel about that one. we both go to school and have jobs that have occupied our schedules for the past couple of months. it has been diffifcult due to these conflicting schedules for us to get together and spend any time with one another. on top of that whenever you seem to have had free time in the past you seem to make it a point to hang out with the people who in my opinion are not worth your time. so if you dare to go out of your way to blame me for our lack of communication in the past few months fine, be my guest, but do not go complaining about it on livejournal like some deranged teenage soul.
in the past month and a half i have accomplished getting my other best friend, whom i live with, to become fraustrated and irrated with me because apparently since i have been sick i have also become rather distant. my apologies are to you and i do feel extremely bad, especially since i knew nothing about this until last night, however, please do not remark about how i lack compassion for your situation because for the past year and a half of my life i have done nothing but worry and put your concerns ahead of my own. if you are to have learned anything about me thus far it is that i will always put you and your needs ahead of my own, and nothing will ever change that.
in the past month and a half i have realized how much working at the orlando science center makes me want to smash a brick into my forhead until i resume an unconscience state.
in the past month and a half i have had to listen to about a dozen other friends bitch and complain about how i am making a conscience effort to ignore them and avoid their presence at all costs. well you know what? i am sick and tired of explaining myself any further so think what you want...and if you honestly think i am ignoring you, well, then i probably am.
in the past month and a half i have realized what it feels like to be really fucking hurt by someone else.
in the past month and a half i have some how managed to enrage and/or irrate everyone i am close to. i lost one best friend because apparently i no longer have time for her. well here is how i feel about that one. we both go to school and have jobs that have occupied our schedules for the past couple of months. it has been diffifcult due to these conflicting schedules for us to get together and spend any time with one another. on top of that whenever you seem to have had free time in the past you seem to make it a point to hang out with the people who in my opinion are not worth your time. so if you dare to go out of your way to blame me for our lack of communication in the past few months fine, be my guest, but do not go complaining about it on livejournal like some deranged teenage soul.
in the past month and a half i have accomplished getting my other best friend, whom i live with, to become fraustrated and irrated with me because apparently since i have been sick i have also become rather distant. my apologies are to you and i do feel extremely bad, especially since i knew nothing about this until last night, however, please do not remark about how i lack compassion for your situation because for the past year and a half of my life i have done nothing but worry and put your concerns ahead of my own. if you are to have learned anything about me thus far it is that i will always put you and your needs ahead of my own, and nothing will ever change that.
in the past month and a half i have realized how much working at the orlando science center makes me want to smash a brick into my forhead until i resume an unconscience state.
in the past month and a half i have had to listen to about a dozen other friends bitch and complain about how i am making a conscience effort to ignore them and avoid their presence at all costs. well you know what? i am sick and tired of explaining myself any further so think what you want...and if you honestly think i am ignoring you, well, then i probably am.
in the past month and a half i have realized what it feels like to be really fucking hurt by someone else.