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I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open and i can barely move any part of my body-im tired. Yet my mind is racing through thoughts, leaving me- awake at 3:00 in the morning analyzing life and the direction it is going. Along with analyzing comes memories-tear-"what if's" and one long night. So it happened, the long awaited graduation from highschool. I spent 4 years of my life in one place, 4 years of my life walking the same route, doing the same routine, and i was so comfortable with that. Now i am going to have too adjust to a life that i dont have a set path, i dont know my routine and that scares me, i wont lie-im affraid. Im affraid that i am going to hate how it is going to be, and everyday i will wish with all my heart to go back to those "good old highschool" days. When life was so seroius, and who cares if you didnt have a job, school was school, sports were played, dances were danced, and good times were had. Now i find things are begining to become a little more less light hearted as they used to be. This is just all happened so quickly- it happened and its done.
I think to much
I live by whats going to happen next, not by the now. and i should. Living by the whats going to happen next puts way to much stress of my, i need to be a little bit more carefree. i mean this is pretty much my last summer to be carefree. im not ready for life-i want to just say within my comfort of the past and not have to live the unknown future. Im afraid of what it has to hold for me, the work ill have to do, the people i'll loose, and heartbreaks i'll have. Im afraid of those things, and i think about them way to much, which mostly holds me back from doing the things i want to do. Soo tonight-well this morning i'm promising to myself im not going to over think everything. Hopefully this summer will be the summer of our livess.
I think to much
I live by whats going to happen next, not by the now. and i should. Living by the whats going to happen next puts way to much stress of my, i need to be a little bit more carefree. i mean this is pretty much my last summer to be carefree. im not ready for life-i want to just say within my comfort of the past and not have to live the unknown future. Im afraid of what it has to hold for me, the work ill have to do, the people i'll loose, and heartbreaks i'll have. Im afraid of those things, and i think about them way to much, which mostly holds me back from doing the things i want to do. Soo tonight-well this morning i'm promising to myself im not going to over think everything. Hopefully this summer will be the summer of our livess.