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i never understand why she yells at me when she has her own insecurities? she's paranoid that her boy doesn't love her and is only playing her. i'm paranoid about losing one of my dearest friends....does anyone else undersand this craziness??
last night she yelled at me for being insecure about our friendship. i apparently joined one of her communities and she read my last entry. she got all pissed and blamed everything on me. of course...but how was i supposed to know that she was part of that community? i didn't know so how is it my fault that i joined it without knowing she was involved in it? does anyone understand that? cause i sure as hell don't...she jumpped on me for joining because she wanted to write down everything that's going on without the repercussions of us (me and kat) reading it. she straight up told me that she feels like she can't express her true feelings because i'll be reading it. omg how can u be so selfish? i didn't know you were part of that community...if i had known i wouldn't have joined the community in the first place because all i want is to write about how shitty everyone is treating me. oh well i guess...it's all my fault so i might as well jump off a cliff for all they care. god!! i can't take this anymore. i just want to die!
i like my new icon (i believe i got it off of someone on lj...thank you whoever you are) it's how i feel...i feel like i have to apologize for everything that i do. it's like i can never do anything right anymore. all they do is yell at me for not being smart enough like they are. i'm sick and tired of it.
i'm sorry i can't be like you
i'm sorry i can't be your perfect little child
i'm sorry i have mental problems
i'm sorry i bothered you with my feelings
i'm sorry i scar my body
i'm sorry i am not like my sister
i'm sorry i pick up on my friends' emotions
i'm sorry i can't control my pain
i'm sorry i am a disgrace to the Catholic faith
i'm sorry i don't believe in the Catholic faith
i'm sorry i am bisexual
i'm sorry i am alone
i'm sorry i have so much medical bills
i'm sorry i cost you so much money
i'm sorry i was ever born
i'm sorry mom and dad
i trully am sorry
god i hate life right now...where's a razor blade when you need one?!
last night she yelled at me for being insecure about our friendship. i apparently joined one of her communities and she read my last entry. she got all pissed and blamed everything on me. of course...but how was i supposed to know that she was part of that community? i didn't know so how is it my fault that i joined it without knowing she was involved in it? does anyone understand that? cause i sure as hell don't...she jumpped on me for joining because she wanted to write down everything that's going on without the repercussions of us (me and kat) reading it. she straight up told me that she feels like she can't express her true feelings because i'll be reading it. omg how can u be so selfish? i didn't know you were part of that community...if i had known i wouldn't have joined the community in the first place because all i want is to write about how shitty everyone is treating me. oh well i guess...it's all my fault so i might as well jump off a cliff for all they care. god!! i can't take this anymore. i just want to die!
i like my new icon (i believe i got it off of someone on lj...thank you whoever you are) it's how i feel...i feel like i have to apologize for everything that i do. it's like i can never do anything right anymore. all they do is yell at me for not being smart enough like they are. i'm sick and tired of it.
i'm sorry i can't be like you
i'm sorry i can't be your perfect little child
i'm sorry i have mental problems
i'm sorry i bothered you with my feelings
i'm sorry i scar my body
i'm sorry i am not like my sister
i'm sorry i pick up on my friends' emotions
i'm sorry i can't control my pain
i'm sorry i am a disgrace to the Catholic faith
i'm sorry i don't believe in the Catholic faith
i'm sorry i am bisexual
i'm sorry i am alone
i'm sorry i have so much medical bills
i'm sorry i cost you so much money
i'm sorry i was ever born
i'm sorry mom and dad
i trully am sorry
god i hate life right now...where's a razor blade when you need one?!