im just a man in a music box and the world went on without me.
Have you ever eaten a nectarine or a peach and found some really good parts that were juicy on it that you could really savor but there are also some really bad mealy parts that have no taste? and you have to eat some of the bad stuff to get to the delicious part? Well, I just experienced this. On both a literal and allegoric meaning. Forgetting the actual fruit now, I am begining to realize that all of this bad stuff lately may be leading to something better. I realize that im no wear near a personal euphoria, but im kinda getting happy again. Its weird how talking to your best friend makes these things seems so much more understandable. thanks t. I realized that I need to chill the fuck out and just start looking over this shady hill that ive been sitting on these last few months. it could be worse..right? yes, it could and im smart enough to get myself through all this this time. im only 19. im only 19. my life isnt even started that. I need to remind myself that more often i think.