Boy Wanted

[unspoken_beauty]

My lungs are on fire they are disintegrating this very second,
right now before my eyes, my life is falling apart
crumbling...
I'm scared of not being with anyone and I'm even more afraid of being with someone
I walk in crowd of nameless faces
People I sit with everyday
i do 't know who you are but I'm sure you think you know me
You don't
I dont even know me
It's a shame because I'm sure I'm some one wonderful
OMg what if I'm not
These things are so scary
I play head games with myself all day
Terrified of losing control
People who are intelligent don't have nearly enough control of there thoughts
I'm strong but not in the way you think
I'm weak but not in the way you think
Quite frankly I don't think you do a whole lot of thinking
Boys suck
They want you for one reason only
I'm the Joan of Arc of relationships (if you can call them that)
Why do I waste so much time caring about these frivolous things when they dont even matter right now
I'm waiting for someone who had been through it all
Someone who can hold be and make me real again
To find my inner beauty si i dont have to struggle with these
so called teenage problems that every ont has
I'm gonna go put up posters