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Dear mom,
I am so messed up right now. You are gone now for more than 6 months. I still want to call you, even though you never really gave advice and couldn't help. Just talking to you about what is happening is what I need.
My heart is breaking. I am afraid to move forward. I have no idea HOW to move forward. He says he's thinking about leaving me. He isn't happy, loves me but wishes I were who I was before I had our child? I really don't know how to respond to that. We are trying therapy. I want it to work, but add to all of this I am on antidepressants trying to deal with your loss and I just don't know.
I am hurting, I am sad, I am angry, and I have no idea how to help fix this. I've been praying, I've been telling God that I'll stand on his Word and I am trying not to be anxious. And then I look at reality. I've been a homemaker for 10 years. I haven't worked outside of the house. I don't know where to begin.
I won't be able to give our child the life we have now. Half of his life will be poor.
I am lost, I am sick at heart and I don't know how to do all of this. I need you to be alive and be the mom you never were.
I am so messed up right now. You are gone now for more than 6 months. I still want to call you, even though you never really gave advice and couldn't help. Just talking to you about what is happening is what I need.
My heart is breaking. I am afraid to move forward. I have no idea HOW to move forward. He says he's thinking about leaving me. He isn't happy, loves me but wishes I were who I was before I had our child? I really don't know how to respond to that. We are trying therapy. I want it to work, but add to all of this I am on antidepressants trying to deal with your loss and I just don't know.
I am hurting, I am sad, I am angry, and I have no idea how to help fix this. I've been praying, I've been telling God that I'll stand on his Word and I am trying not to be anxious. And then I look at reality. I've been a homemaker for 10 years. I haven't worked outside of the house. I don't know where to begin.
I won't be able to give our child the life we have now. Half of his life will be poor.
I am lost, I am sick at heart and I don't know how to do all of this. I need you to be alive and be the mom you never were.