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To: ******
From: stefanie
What are you trying to do to me? Did you know how high up we were when you dropped me and watched me fall? Where were you when I was craving to talk to you for one last time, just for closure? You knew how much you meant to me, didn't you? I want you to know how broken you left me here, how torn I am inside about what I should do. Did you mean to do this to me? I thought I made it clear that you were the only one who could save me, but then again, maybe I didn't. Please, let me know so that I can decide what path I should take. I have some of the blame too, it wasn't just your fault. We both were wrong. We can't leave each other like this; it's too cruel for even us. Just tell me, why are you trying to be in my life again? I just started to get over you and not be as eager to see you or talk to you every second of every day, but now, things have changed. You're telling me that I have a chance to be your girl again? What happened to all the others? Did you leave them behind or just put them on hold until the time that you could use them against me again?
Do you know that I have a perfect someone in my life? **** is all that I could ever want and more, so why do I still hunger for you? What about you is so tempting? Is it because you are so like me? A demon and an imbecile...yet so easy to love. Why are you the only one that can bring out this side of me? What is your secret weapon that you use only on me? It can't be your words or your touch, cause I know you've used the exact same words and tricks to bring others under your spell. I'm just the only one that can't escape. I love you ******, but I don't know if I can trust you and believe in you like I already do. It isn't fair. Are you a liar that says false words from the very marrow of his bones? God, I hope you are...
It's the honest ones that are unpredictable, and I want to know who I am up against. Something about you has changed, good or bad, I don't know yet. Love is beautful and bleeding at the same time, and I want you to know how much of a negative impact you've had on me. I hate you...but I love you at the same time. This decision is so hard to make, can't you help me make it? Don't show your devotion by proving that you would die for me. Wouldn't it be a better example to live for me instead? Death is easy. Life is hard. Help me carry my burdens and love me. Love me like I love you. I'm asking you, please, take these scars on my wrists and let people know that they were made because of you, then cut them out. Make a deeper, more heartfelt incision on me that helps me, not hurts me. Love me like you never did before...
From: stefanie
What are you trying to do to me? Did you know how high up we were when you dropped me and watched me fall? Where were you when I was craving to talk to you for one last time, just for closure? You knew how much you meant to me, didn't you? I want you to know how broken you left me here, how torn I am inside about what I should do. Did you mean to do this to me? I thought I made it clear that you were the only one who could save me, but then again, maybe I didn't. Please, let me know so that I can decide what path I should take. I have some of the blame too, it wasn't just your fault. We both were wrong. We can't leave each other like this; it's too cruel for even us. Just tell me, why are you trying to be in my life again? I just started to get over you and not be as eager to see you or talk to you every second of every day, but now, things have changed. You're telling me that I have a chance to be your girl again? What happened to all the others? Did you leave them behind or just put them on hold until the time that you could use them against me again?
Do you know that I have a perfect someone in my life? **** is all that I could ever want and more, so why do I still hunger for you? What about you is so tempting? Is it because you are so like me? A demon and an imbecile...yet so easy to love. Why are you the only one that can bring out this side of me? What is your secret weapon that you use only on me? It can't be your words or your touch, cause I know you've used the exact same words and tricks to bring others under your spell. I'm just the only one that can't escape. I love you ******, but I don't know if I can trust you and believe in you like I already do. It isn't fair. Are you a liar that says false words from the very marrow of his bones? God, I hope you are...
It's the honest ones that are unpredictable, and I want to know who I am up against. Something about you has changed, good or bad, I don't know yet. Love is beautful and bleeding at the same time, and I want you to know how much of a negative impact you've had on me. I hate you...but I love you at the same time. This decision is so hard to make, can't you help me make it? Don't show your devotion by proving that you would die for me. Wouldn't it be a better example to live for me instead? Death is easy. Life is hard. Help me carry my burdens and love me. Love me like I love you. I'm asking you, please, take these scars on my wrists and let people know that they were made because of you, then cut them out. Make a deeper, more heartfelt incision on me that helps me, not hurts me. Love me like you never did before...