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Blah. I have so much on my mind but I don't even want to talk about it. I just need someone here with me to just let me cry while letting me know that they care and that they are here for me. I am so sick of being so fucking sad all the time and it's just not fair. I try so hard to be a good person and give everyone else the benefit of the doubt that they are too. I forgive for pretty much everything. I am so sick of losing people because I care too much. It doesn't even make sense to me. Goddamn it. I can't even deal with anything right now, and I'm going to end up screwing up this semester so badly. I never want to fall for anyone ever again. Relationships are such a waste of time, energy, and money. You spend all your time worrying about and caring for this person who just doesn't even give a fuck about you and I can't understand the point of putting yourself through all that. I don't like the person I've become through all of this. I am more insecure, bitter, and miserable. That is all I got out of being in love. It's a complete waste.