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So. It's about time I had a heart to heart with all my LJ fans. Instead of the non-serious sex with men jokes and stuff about the band. Well, one thing. A band called The Apology has asked us to tour with them in August. The thing is, I have to go to school, which, is the only setback. Hopefully we can go, and hopefully I can get a semester out of school for it, but there are no definites.
Anyways, the point of this post is to speak of that special female that I recently discovered old feelings for. Yes, she knows how I feel. I've known her for about a year and a half. I've had feelings for her for about a year. The other night, we kissed, and I was extremely happy. The next day, I woke up... and thought to myself, "There's nothing to get excited about, what if it was just one of those things to her?"
Well, I talked to her about it, and, I really didn't get any information. Except that it wasn't just that she wanted to be with someone at the time, it was me she wanted to be with. Now, for those of you who know me, I'm the relationship kind of guy. Random hookups are alright, but, it's always better when there's feelings involved. So, I don't know if that was a one night thing for her, or possibly a relationship in the forming.
If words could only describe how I felt for this girl, they would be put here. The sheer sound of her name makes me feel week. Her personality is almost a mirror reflection of mine, and that's what I love about her most. The way we can talk for hours on hand, and I never get tired of her. Whether it's the same for her or not, I don't know, but hopefully it is. When I went to her house the other night, I realized that even in the times we weren't talking (her being asleep with a pillow in my lap, or being on the porch swing with my arm around her), I was completely content in just knowing that she was there. Even her cat likes me, and her cat doesn't like anyone(pointless remark, I know.) I think she's the most beautiful girl in the world, no matter what anyone else thinks, even herself. I've told her I don't know how many times that she is the most perfect girl in the world, but she doesn't want to accept it. She's the only girl who's EVER made me feel strong and week at the same time. I've never been so ecstatic, although I've never been this scared either. Everything about her makes her shine, even if others wouldn't think so.
I wish I could mention her name, but it would be a breach of privacy between her and myself, even though I can almost guarantee that none of you know her. It might just screw things up, however, if she read this (which, I doubt would happen), she would know who she was.
Anyways, I'm seeking advice. She says she's not sure if she wants to be single, in a relationship, or half-way there. What do I say to her? Do I ask her out? Do I just wait and find out what to do when everything seems completely right?
I'm really confused. Any insight would be appreciated. Much love.
Anyways, the point of this post is to speak of that special female that I recently discovered old feelings for. Yes, she knows how I feel. I've known her for about a year and a half. I've had feelings for her for about a year. The other night, we kissed, and I was extremely happy. The next day, I woke up... and thought to myself, "There's nothing to get excited about, what if it was just one of those things to her?"
Well, I talked to her about it, and, I really didn't get any information. Except that it wasn't just that she wanted to be with someone at the time, it was me she wanted to be with. Now, for those of you who know me, I'm the relationship kind of guy. Random hookups are alright, but, it's always better when there's feelings involved. So, I don't know if that was a one night thing for her, or possibly a relationship in the forming.
If words could only describe how I felt for this girl, they would be put here. The sheer sound of her name makes me feel week. Her personality is almost a mirror reflection of mine, and that's what I love about her most. The way we can talk for hours on hand, and I never get tired of her. Whether it's the same for her or not, I don't know, but hopefully it is. When I went to her house the other night, I realized that even in the times we weren't talking (her being asleep with a pillow in my lap, or being on the porch swing with my arm around her), I was completely content in just knowing that she was there. Even her cat likes me, and her cat doesn't like anyone(pointless remark, I know.) I think she's the most beautiful girl in the world, no matter what anyone else thinks, even herself. I've told her I don't know how many times that she is the most perfect girl in the world, but she doesn't want to accept it. She's the only girl who's EVER made me feel strong and week at the same time. I've never been so ecstatic, although I've never been this scared either. Everything about her makes her shine, even if others wouldn't think so.
I wish I could mention her name, but it would be a breach of privacy between her and myself, even though I can almost guarantee that none of you know her. It might just screw things up, however, if she read this (which, I doubt would happen), she would know who she was.
Anyways, I'm seeking advice. She says she's not sure if she wants to be single, in a relationship, or half-way there. What do I say to her? Do I ask her out? Do I just wait and find out what to do when everything seems completely right?
I'm really confused. Any insight would be appreciated. Much love.