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I've found another good thing about being sick. It seems to blank my mind. All the things that were causeing me stress before are not as persistent. Like a nice bubble blocked out everything. Like my body can't handle being sick and crazy at the same time. So it's all kinda still there, but not as persistent as it can be. Like I took a shower today and it was actually relaxing. No thoughts about Bryan or Bryan(rico) or Russ (I know, weird) .. ok that's a lie, limited thoughts about them, but not enough to make me hate myself, the world or anything else I wanted to be mad at.
I feel tired, weak and dizy, but wonderful. It's so unfair. There's still the stress of life and classes and all, but I'll handle it, and maybe my abstract sceen will suck but that's ok.. i guess I can't do everything right. lame. English made simple looked really cool the way I wanted to do it. But I would set it up more realisticly.
I feel tired, weak and dizy, but wonderful. It's so unfair. There's still the stress of life and classes and all, but I'll handle it, and maybe my abstract sceen will suck but that's ok.. i guess I can't do everything right. lame. English made simple looked really cool the way I wanted to do it. But I would set it up more realisticly.