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I don't even know what to think about everything that happened this weekend.
Oxbow was so horrible this weekend. So many horses are leaving or dying and it's just so upsetting.
Lucy left yesterday and I just cried so much, I'm getting teary eyed thinking about it now. I love Lucy so much and she was practically my horse for awhile and I'll miss her so much. It feels like I'm just another person to abandon her and I just feel so bad cause she's been abandoned and neglected so many times and even though she was always grumpy to everyone she always got really happy when I would take care of her and tell her that she's gorgeous. I loved riding her, even after she got blind in one eye. I know that if I didn't stop leasing her and that if I kept riding her and taking care of her that she wouldn't have had to leave. And she wouldn't have gotten really bad rainrot and she would have been fine. I feel horrible about it. I know I can't be too upset about it, I just hope she really likes it where she'd going. I hope she doesn't have to be so grumpy anymore and that she makes tons of new friends.
Also, this horse named Richard died on saturday. Richard was this crazy old guy with tons of spunk. And he had this donkey, named guiseppe and he LOVED guiseppe. He always tried to keep him in his sight and they lived together too. So on saturday morning when Richard couldn't get himself up from the aisle floor, it was a little heartbreaking to see little guiseppe lying down and getting up again to try and show Richard how to do it. Guiseppe was just so distressed he had diarrea and was calling and pawing and just looking so upset. All the kids were so upset, and understandably so. And then some truck thing came to take his body away, which was covered in blankets, and I came into the lower barn to see his body being dragged across the aisle into the truck thing and it was a little horrible. Another horse, Romeo is going to be put down tomorrow because he can hardly walk. This horse is crazy, because he had an operation and already died twice on the operating table. Aww, but seeing Romeo reminds me of all the good times we used to had when we all rode our original ponies like Dylan, Pepper, Nicky, Charlie and Romeo and how we would all go on the trails and on cross country and just run around and race and explore and have tons of fun at oxbow. I think that was my favorite time period at oxbow. I don't like oxbow as much as I used to back then. I think it's really because I don't have a constant horse to ride and ... I don't know it's just not the same and as carefree. And with all of these horses dying and leaving... I don't know it makes me kind of want to disapear after I leave for college kind of like how Claire disapeared. Cause I know it won't be the same when I come back and I think that will just disapoint me more than anything else. All new horses and new people. It'll be too weird. My mom already said she's leaving once I go to college. I don't think any other barn will be like oxbow though.
But other than that, Sasha's party was a lot of fun. Oh god... I'm scared to see the pictures that gg and megan took with their cameras. Oh god they're probably so bad. Sahsa kopped a feel on my facial tit. Haha and... why was Kalen SO ghetto. HAHA so funny. And of course the show was amazing. I got absolutely NO sleep this weekend. I'm so drained from lack of sleep and from being upset/stressed and from dancing so much and stuff. whateva! 4 day weekend soon.
Oxbow was so horrible this weekend. So many horses are leaving or dying and it's just so upsetting.
Lucy left yesterday and I just cried so much, I'm getting teary eyed thinking about it now. I love Lucy so much and she was practically my horse for awhile and I'll miss her so much. It feels like I'm just another person to abandon her and I just feel so bad cause she's been abandoned and neglected so many times and even though she was always grumpy to everyone she always got really happy when I would take care of her and tell her that she's gorgeous. I loved riding her, even after she got blind in one eye. I know that if I didn't stop leasing her and that if I kept riding her and taking care of her that she wouldn't have had to leave. And she wouldn't have gotten really bad rainrot and she would have been fine. I feel horrible about it. I know I can't be too upset about it, I just hope she really likes it where she'd going. I hope she doesn't have to be so grumpy anymore and that she makes tons of new friends.
Also, this horse named Richard died on saturday. Richard was this crazy old guy with tons of spunk. And he had this donkey, named guiseppe and he LOVED guiseppe. He always tried to keep him in his sight and they lived together too. So on saturday morning when Richard couldn't get himself up from the aisle floor, it was a little heartbreaking to see little guiseppe lying down and getting up again to try and show Richard how to do it. Guiseppe was just so distressed he had diarrea and was calling and pawing and just looking so upset. All the kids were so upset, and understandably so. And then some truck thing came to take his body away, which was covered in blankets, and I came into the lower barn to see his body being dragged across the aisle into the truck thing and it was a little horrible. Another horse, Romeo is going to be put down tomorrow because he can hardly walk. This horse is crazy, because he had an operation and already died twice on the operating table. Aww, but seeing Romeo reminds me of all the good times we used to had when we all rode our original ponies like Dylan, Pepper, Nicky, Charlie and Romeo and how we would all go on the trails and on cross country and just run around and race and explore and have tons of fun at oxbow. I think that was my favorite time period at oxbow. I don't like oxbow as much as I used to back then. I think it's really because I don't have a constant horse to ride and ... I don't know it's just not the same and as carefree. And with all of these horses dying and leaving... I don't know it makes me kind of want to disapear after I leave for college kind of like how Claire disapeared. Cause I know it won't be the same when I come back and I think that will just disapoint me more than anything else. All new horses and new people. It'll be too weird. My mom already said she's leaving once I go to college. I don't think any other barn will be like oxbow though.
But other than that, Sasha's party was a lot of fun. Oh god... I'm scared to see the pictures that gg and megan took with their cameras. Oh god they're probably so bad. Sahsa kopped a feel on my facial tit. Haha and... why was Kalen SO ghetto. HAHA so funny. And of course the show was amazing. I got absolutely NO sleep this weekend. I'm so drained from lack of sleep and from being upset/stressed and from dancing so much and stuff. whateva! 4 day weekend soon.