Today has been a BAD day
No one is actually going to read this, which is pretty goddamn freeing.
To clarfy my day started out normally. I got up, got dressed, all that good stuff, but it was raining, which really sucked.
I should have taken the rain as an omen, because now, some 7 hours later, I'm in a funk.
The words I hate myself have crossed my mind more than one. Same with thoughts of suicide.
I feel miserable now, but hours before it was a lot worse. There was low level static in my brain. I wanted to scream.
I still do but it's less urgent now.