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it seems to me that whenever theres a problem, i tend to be the one blamed. JUST ME. never partly me. and of course i take all this bull shit because im "too nice" and i put everyone before me. then i make myself feel like shit, because im stupid like that. i wish i had the courage to speak up and stand up for myself. cait has given me advice on that, and maybe ill try and put it to use. its going to be hard but i should try it. thanx for the advice cait.
im so dumb. i need to change. i just wish i wasnt blamed for everything that happens...even when its a two-way deal. its not fair and i cant take this shit anymore. im done with this drama b.s. i dont want to deal with it anymore. i cant wait to get away from here ....but of course theres not really a way out of life i guess unless..u know..but no, thats not the way i should deal with this and i wont deal with it that way. i just wish i could stick up for myself. im done........
im so dumb. i need to change. i just wish i wasnt blamed for everything that happens...even when its a two-way deal. its not fair and i cant take this shit anymore. im done with this drama b.s. i dont want to deal with it anymore. i cant wait to get away from here ....but of course theres not really a way out of life i guess unless..u know..but no, thats not the way i should deal with this and i wont deal with it that way. i just wish i could stick up for myself. im done........